I don’t know if it’s my perception
Or if it’s an autism thing
Or a result of having a past where I had no control over my health and depended on everyone
Or if it’s cos I spend most of my time with my family and just don’t think of others much
I am there. For true friends - but will that even play out I don’t know
Any words?
My friend Tim once explained to me that everyone acts according to rational self-interest. He argued that even when you do something for someone else you are really acting in your own interests.
Play for both.
I have become selfish. It’s like you said
Or a result of having a past where I had no control over my health and depended on everyone
And they let me down.
That’s interesting. I can’t afford to be selfish with the amount I ask of other people. I do go into self preservation mode when ■■■■ hits the fan. But even when things are good and I’m giving I take far more than I give.
It gets to me going to both extremes at times, but I think even normies have this problem sometimes. Try not to be too hard on yourself.
We withdraw into a selfish world due to having been hurt when we did reach out to love one another.
I usually am the type of person that helped others out more than myself.
I never thought about me.
Being unselfish means that others look on you more kindly and are more inclined to do selfless things for you. So in the end everybody benefits. I think sz makes me more selfish than other people.
I care about myself because that’s all I have. Before sz I had the mental flexibility to think about 10 people’s emotions at the same time.
Even though I have no friends, I still don’t think of myself. I think I might have prolonged ego-death associated from getting psychosis from eating marijuana edibles years and years ago.
It’s hard not to be selfish when you have to constantly think about survival. Before my illness I had many more opportunities to help others.
I do feel selfish, for dropping out of society and ‘normal life’, and like Sunilion said, going into self-preservation mode. But maybe that isn’t entirely selfish - if I do what’s best for myself, I can be the best for others when they need me. Just a thought.
we all help each other here so i don’t believe it is true selfishness we are experiencing.
instead, like was said here before on this very section, it is a matter of survival.
besides, not too many people (at least in my life) want interference from us – so what else should we do with ourselves but spend all day trying to help ourselves out of this mess.
just my opinion.
judy
I think all schizophrenics are more self-preoccupied than most people. that doesn’t make us selfish. we can be very giving too with people we feel deserve it.