I blame my illness for a lot of things. There was something in my childhood which kept me perpetually angry. If that didnāt cause my sz, I donāt know what did.
If that was directed at me, I was on Geodon for a while. The geometry comment was an in-joke directed at other fans of the works of H.P. Lovecraft. There are references to the sunken city of Rālyeh where viewing the non-Euclidian geometry of this ācity of the deadā causes cognitive dissonance that drives mere mortals insane.
So, yeah, sorry, literary humour. @Twang, where are you? A little help here?
I blame it mainly on genes and the fact I was born to a teen mom with depression. Also I was only 5 pounds and may have been a bit premature.
I was bullied and excluded for 6 years prior to developing sza. The real traumatic events didnāt come until later and didnāt seem to make the voices any worse.
I used to blame people but now I blame genes and stress. I blame poverty, overwork, and isolation from people. Also, I blame God, who I believe chose this for my life.
My genes played a part in causing the sickness but I think that the real trigger have been my parents who were cruel and violent. So because of my nightmare childhood, not only have I not a mental illness, but I have also a lot of psychological problems that are preventing me from being really happy in life.
The only place where Iām successful is in my professional life and because of that, it is my only source of happiness now.ļø This is exactly why despite Iām actually on vacation, Iām not happy and Iām unable to stop thinking about my job, because nothing else makes me happy.
It is what it is. I donāt blame anyone in truth although I have before. Truth is itās prob genetics and was stress and defiantly the way I was born. (Suicidal sz mother- had to be emergency cut out 3 months early and put on life support for first 2 months. Doctor thought Iād be a veg).
My hardship being born not to mention lots of family including my mother prob planted it in me. But Iām not angry. I just live the best life I can live. And I love my life in general.
I blame it on getting a blood clot in the brain due to having a sedentary lifestyle and sub-optimal diet. Luckily clot busters and antipsychotics are working to reduce symptoms measurably.
I got schizophrenia from my dadās side of the family. He didnāt even know that he had the schizophrenic gene so itās no oneās fault that I became schizophrenic.
i guess i am just a victim of poor circumstances, i think i had a conflict of interest which caused confusion in my mind, it was between my mum and dad and it was like i loved my dad so much but i didnt want my mum to be left out and she was going deaf, its probably simple but complicated at the same time.
but they say that people are suppose to show more love because we are the way we are but idk if that is true, like i got unwell so people could show their love through me, i am the way i am to make people care more about mental illness and the poor and the suffering (in theory) lol
There are certainly reasons for my having sz, but Iām less interested in why than I used to be. Hereās my list though: I was born 2 months premature, I was abused and neglected throughout my childhood, molested when I was about 6-7, and sz (and other mental disorders) runs in my family⦠I have always been different, and my first hallucinations were at 4 years old, so I was never āwellā and then became āsickā. I was, imo, born with a brain that copes and functions this way.