Sorry for my English but I ask myself if I could have been avoid the illness if I have done better choices? You know, I smoked 10 joints per day for 6 years in total isolation almost… it will drive mad everybody…
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My psychosis started due to lack of sleep… i was highly insomniac when the sz started…i was never diagnosed sz on time… cuz my positive symptoms are never full blown… i was diagnosed as mixed anxiety… that never worked…sorry guys i am abit hopless…hahaha we know szphernic has to suffer this entire life…
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I see, far… well, I look at the past and I had bad symptoms before the weed though. For example, I was feeling bad in my body. Bad physically I mean, uncomfortable. In the way that I had all kind of body pains and my motricity was bad. all kind of symptoms like this. I also feel cold in my skin very often, maybe its depressive idk. Its just my brain which don’t work…all kind of stuff like this…
But far, stop saying that we will suffer the entire life, we have chance you know? Plus, I told you - my doc said that even the normies make all kind of sacrifices with their life…
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Yes Anna i like ur philosophy …!!! Even normie has to sagrifice… U are right on this Anna… take care sister …!!! … do u still smoke cigratte … i quit it on cold turkey …!!! Enjoy ur breakfast and be hopefull …!!! Anna …!!! U have changed for better i like it…!!! U sound more hopeful Anna …!!!
Yeah, I feel like I am more open, less closed in myself. But I am sometimes more ragy and still depressed cause I realize the reality wow 
. Maybe lithium works even on low doses no? heh 
But sometimes I feel shame about the past cause I made some crazy stuff for the past years… Do you feel shame some of you here? You, far? Is it normal when you land on the reality? lol…
I smoke a loot Far 
Its bad but I am low functioning you know, its my last pleasure.
hugs
I used to smoke a lot of weed. I had symptoms before the weed, so I don’t think I triggered my illness by smoking. But, even though I had symptoms before, the weed made them worse. In the beginning, it felt like the weed took them away, but then I realised it actually made them worse.
I don’t think blaming yourself or anyone else will do you any good. If you’re still smoking weed, you should try to quit or at least not do it daily, though.
But like I said, trying to place blame won’t do any good. The illness is there, we might as well learn to live with it
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Youve never been diagnosed?
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at 14 i attended an elo concert with some older friends. some men sitting behind us shared, what i believed was grass, and i began visually hallucinating. my friends said it was likely angel dust. about 7 years later i tried smoking pot. and the voices which had been inside my head became audible.
so yeah, i wonder if i broke my brain. i am against middle school students attending concerts with adults.
it is hard knowing i may have did this to myself. ;(
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My diagnosis is sz but i have very few positive symptoms …i have loads of negative and cognitive symptoms… what about u @Tom21… what is ur breakthrough symptoms which u still face doing medication too…!!!
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I am like you. I have alot of cognitive impairment and what I think are negative symptoms. However I have little to no positive symptoms.
so you have simple schizophrenia.
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Same as you, my symptoms occurred in tandem with my sleep worsening.
As for whether I could have avoided the onset of psychosis by getting better sleep… my sleep deteriorated because I was manic so I was gonna get slapped with an MI label either way lol.
This is not blaming oneself. Blaming anybody would be negative and not constructive! No, some of us are just trying to figure out how it happened!
When I was diagnosed, everyone kept telling me that I didn’t do anything “wrong,” I had nothing to do with my dx, etc. But given the fact that there is an environmental, as well as a genetic component, albeit an environmental component that is not understood, I don’t take a huge amount of comfort in that. I’m not blaming myself for my dx, I’m just aware that given the amount of “unknowns” out there - it could turn out that something I did or didn’t do may have had an affect.
It’s OK to be curious.
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That’s true, but no matter what we may or may not find to have helped cause it, it won’t change the fact that we have that diagnosis. Finding answers to what made us this way won’t make us well again, unless the person who found the answers is a scientist working on a cure or something
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mine was due to genetics. it was bound to happen sooner or later. my grandfather and dad are and were schizoaffective and my aunt on my dad’s side is schizophrenic. my mom and many members of her family are bipolar including my brother. so i just was bound to get an illness just didn’t matter what one.
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A stressful event in my life triggered my psychosis. If I had avoided that event, I may not have gone into psychosis but schizophrenic symptoms would still exist. Eventually I would have been hospitalized later on in my life because members of my father’s side of the family have the disease.
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Weed and hallucinogenics are known to trigger schizophrenia, but my understanding is that the genetics have to already be there for the environmental factor to kick in.
I have never done any drugs, but I have had symptoms of psychosis since I was a child. As far as I know, I am the only person in my family with schizoaffective disorder. There were some traumatic events in my life that triggered full-blown psychosis. Maybe if they didn’t happen, my case would have been milder. But I think something would have happened no matter what.
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I’m sza because my father was sza, although he was undiagnosed. I did smoke a lot of pot throughout my life, yes. I quit in the last 13 years.
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I have often wondered if it was something I did, or a virus maybe, that caused this sickness.
I don’t think we could have changed predispositions and tendencies but do think our choices and whether we fed psychosis could have mattered some. But here we are so let’s make the best of it and try to heal some.
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