I sometimes have thoughts about killing myself and I often wonder " what if I just do it "
I don’t seem to trust myself.
Do u also not trust yourself ?
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Yes walla. With the voices you can’t be sure…
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You can think of harming yourself
I sometimes think the same but I think it’s fear of dying
The truth is I do want to live
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I also want to live and love myself.
Sometimes I just scare myself
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I don’t trust myself at all. There’s just been too many times that I’ve become overwhelmed and tried to fix it by ending it all. We strive for safety. All the pills are locked up. Thankfully I don’t think I would ever try a violent type of suicide.
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I dont trust myself or what I see, hear, think etc
TLDR - NOPE
I’m working on it…
It’s more stuff along the lines of not ramming into cars or driving off the road (I drive a lot.)
On a more secretive level… It’s like drunken confusions, fatigued, and strange violent impulses at times… or discomfort with my genitals and oscillations between fears of castration or fears of getting caught in a trans-gendered state of being.
They’re little psychological blips at times… and fear and distrust keep me from overcoming their presence. None of it is really a big deal and it takes less and less reassurance to wrestle myself back to healthier foci.
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No, I don’t. I don’t trust myself with money. I have a definite tendency to go overboard with spending at times and it scares me. But, I don’t trust anyone else to manage my money for me either. I’ve had bad experiences before with conservators.
I’m sober enough to trust myself, but I still get the occasional catastrophic doomsday intrusive thought, like I’m going to do something wrong. Has to do with the pressure and pain in my brain.
before medicine I had a highly ‘voodoo’ type mentality and i believed in hexes and black magic (i was so far gone mentally) so back then I could hardly trust myself and i was oftentimes very mean to people because of my ego problem.
so all in all, my score of trusting myself today is about 70/100. I’m still delusional but without all the wild beliefs
I have a dear friend who is also like me. She absolutely can’t be trusted with any amount of money. If she has even a penny she will find a way to spend it. She needs a conservator very badly and she recently hired her therapist to guard the money she got out of a loan she took out. That was a very wise move. It takes two signatures, her own and her therapist’s, to withdraw this money out of her bank account.
I went shopping with her yesterday and she spent $420.00 on two guitars, an amp, guitar strings, and two guitar bags at a thrift store. I didn’t spend a cent. But, that is usually the way it goes. She spends her butt off and I spend nothing.
420 dollars for two guitars etc? They must be very cheap…
One was a used children’s electric guitar for $20 bucks. She got it at a thrift store.
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My dad spends $$ every time he goes to a thrift store.
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I was in hospital. Luckily they caught it. Im a life warrior.
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I think about suicide compulsively. Like every time almost that I feel bad or stress or depression which is like almost everyday I think about suicide. I don’t have any attempts really yet, I wrote a suicide once and started walking towards the subway but turned around. I fear that if I lose hope in getting a job and becoming self sufficient I really will kill myself. I can’t stand the thought of being psychotic and a pariah for the rest of my life.
Some days are fine other days not so good. I don’t trust myself at all
On the right med at the right dose, yes I do trust myself 100%. If I don’t, then something’s wrong with my situation.
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