Some “patients” would pretend to be me and make fun of me. also they are now giving me meds that make me get worse and go crazy because they think that im faking. i wasnt faking, i genuinely thought that the reality of my family being psychopaths trying to sabotage me was all in my head. But turns out that my family is psychopathic and is trying to ruin or end my life. I may have delusions. but the doctors pretend they believe me then give me pills to make me get worse.
So, do they also hire nurses to pretend to be patients?? I just need some insight as to why they are all gaining up on me. Can pdocs lie to you that you have schizophrenia when u dont? help.
@zeno and @rogueone thank you for the replies. I’m trying to be rational. I will keep in mind what you have said. I would take the meds but it doesn’t seem to work. I was given an injection 3 weeks ago and i feel like everything is getting more intense. I fear saying this, because i dont want to be lobotomized, but im getting violent type thoughts because im scared and very angry that it feels like they have all betrayed me and forced me to become insane through hatred of me. however at this time i am not a safety concern as i have some insight holding me to reality (even if by a thread).
If either of you can help, are other patients generally just messed up and have their own problems? or is it possible i may have hallucinated these people? Because they seemed very real but its almost like they were trying to upset me.
During active phases I was totally into the paranoia. It ruled my life and there was logical reasons for everything…well it appeared so to me. It’s hard. Patience is hard to come by in such states but it will work out…Doctors don’t plant people anywhere and nurses are just doing their jobs. It’s not easy working on the psych wards.
It’s hard but other patients have their own issues. Some can be nice and some not so nice but you can’t buy into the negative stuff. You never win that one.
Don’t worry, you will not be lobotomized, the worst that can happen is long term institutionalization.
Also it is not possible to make someone insane.
The other patients have their problems but it is very unlikely that they would try to upset you.