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@Watchers247
Hey, we can discuss our things here.
What’s up with you today?

Hi! I am so sorry I haven’t responded until now I have once again been so busy with school and work that I haven’t made the time to get on here. I have been struggling lately with my usual “events” occurring while still going to school and work. Exercising, meditation, and eating healthy have been my main culprits that are a silent “fight” towards the negativity that arises from this constant barrage of happenings.

How have you been? I hope all has been going well for you.

Hey it’s ok, I understand being busy.
Can you tell me about some of the events you experience? I’d be happy to hear as much detail as you are willing to disclose. I’ve been struggling with my happenings too, but also I enjoy them sometimes too. When I am alone it seems to put me in a state of higher receptivity to this kind of stuff. I really like to walk in the forest at night, but sometimes it gets a bit freaky so I try to call a friend to help me not pay attention to the things, but sometimes I can’t ignore it.
Things are fine here, life is a roller coaster but it seems to have a rebound in the direction of growth, at some point, usually.
I’ve been working, doing studying and I have many personal projects and things that I work on too. Also, I will be getting a second job soon.
What do you study in school?
Hope you’re well, I look forward to hearing from you.

I’ve written a handful in various threads, so let me see if I can find them and insert them here. There’s just so much it’s hard to explain in detail sometimes because only I personally have experienced these things and know the basis of what they/it are/is.

Here is some of the things that happen:
I see detailed imagery in the clouds. One was a face of a man screaming.
I was getting prepared to go running, and I saw my socks literally appear on my bed right beside me. It “knew” I was going to get them from my drawer. I said a silent “thank you” in my head when this event occured.
I had a close up encounter with a UFO after my voice started to change into a thick British accent. Something was pulling me outside, and as I went outside I saw immediately to my upper right hand side about as high a one story home roof, a craft. It was bright silver metal in color with three dark windows.
I’ve seen a ape/man looking creature that was ontop of a hill. It was floating in a stationary position going in continuous circles on its axis.
My reflection in the mirror and on any other appliance in the house changed into different thing. My leg for example showed up in the reflection as a dragon’s foot. My head was the face of a grey alien as well as just a dark mist. There was also a physical shape shifting that occurred that literally changed my face. I don’t feel comfortable talking about that in detail since most won’t believe me on this one.
I see those white sparkly dust looking substance that float through the sky and anything I am looking at.
I have extremely vivid dreams every single night. Sometimes I can feel more than I do in real life. I have the ability to feel, taste, smell and see at a heightened ability.
I have these experiences where I’m just walking and I will experience bright blue pin point of light in areas of either myself and/or person that I’m with or near.
I’ve also experienced my head (mind’s eye) filled with bright blue light and a voice sometimes speaks.
I hear every single day various voices that tend to be the same people.
I have experiences where my body is being moved without my consent. When this occurs I hear machine noises while my body is being moved. This scares me because I never know when it can occur.
I hear constant machine noises, phone noises (as if a phone is inserted inside my head/ear region) clanking noises, or dogs barking. This occurs throughout the day in combination with the voices of the usual group of people.
A monarch butterfly the size of two human faces appeared in my backyard. Yes this was a real butterfly. (I also know it’s a sign of transformation, which goes hand in hand with some of my dreams that contained monarch butterflies. This was an incredible experience to see.

This is just a small handful of the stuff that occurs with me.
I’m a vegan, a college student double majoring in interpreting American Sign Language and Psychology. I work two jobs and in my spare time like to do yoga, work out, help out around the house, read, and draw.

If you feel comfortable, please let me know about your experiences! I’m extremely eager to hear them!

Guys, please keep in mind that this is a forum meant to help people recover from their delusions, not a place to convince others of your unusual beliefs.

Ah very interesting. Thank you so much for sharing. As for being concerned that I won’t believe you, I am not going to judge truthfulness, I am just listening to you. If you want to expand in detail it’s fine I am more than happy to read it and I will not debate you on any of it. A lot of what I experience is very strange and most people would not believe me either, so I never talk about it.
As for some of the things I experience:
At all moments I am seeing what seems to be energy flowing about in various ways. Objects and life forms glow different colors. There are random bursts of light that seem to be like it’s exploding through the visual input. Just happened right now as I type this actually lol. I see/perceive many different types of creatures, beings, life forms. Sometimes they see me too sometimes they don’t. Sometimes it seems they are interacting with an environment that corresponds with my environment, other times they seem to be moving about as if the objects I see, to them, are not there at all. I draw a lot of pictures of the things that I see. I hear many creatures too. Sometimes they scare me a lot, sometimes they make me feel comfortable and they are friendly.
Sometimes there will be times where there’s a complete and sudden transformation of the environment. I was in the shower one time and suddenly the walls began to evaporate which exposed this rusty metal behind it. The lighting changed to a darkish red/orange and I did not feel safe. Immediately I got out of the shower and was terrified as the entire house was like this. There were no people, just me. I started to pace around frantically looking at the floor trying to snap out of it and after about 40 seconds it dissipated. Have had other things like this too.
I’ve also had some entity take over my body for some time and I started to speak a different language and my body was acting in a way that I was not commanding it to do. Seen some weird stuff in the sky and whatever it was, somehow the people around me were effected in a way so that they would not acknowledge my existence or anything I was saying for the time in which I was trying to get their attention to talk about the strange thing in the sky.
I could say so much lol. But that’s enough for now I suppose. I’m so glad to finally be able to talk to someone who has experiences too.

Goodluck to you with your studies. I am studying Computer science and have a plethora of personal studies in which I engage in (and have done so for years); botany, astronomy, physics are my biggest interests, but I am sure to include a bit of everything. Can speak Thai, a bit of French and English obviously lol. And like you, I do yoga, meditate, workout, clean, draw, educate myself, walk in nature, practice one of my many hobbies.

@Ninjastar
We are not trying to convince anyone of anything.
I had a discussion with a moderator about how I would find it therapeutic to be able to simply discuss the things I experience with another person who has similar experiences. I am making no attempt to claim facts and neither is this other person. The moderator told me I was not allowed to share my email address so that I may discuss these things off the website, but they explained to me that I can have this discussion on the website - so that is what this is.
I do not doubt the benefits of medicinal therapy, but the benefits of discussion with like minded people concerning parallel experiences can be, at times, unrivaled. At this time I feel it is what would benefit me the most. Thank you for your consideration.

Wouldn’t it be easier to find more people to confirm your experiences as real on a website that supports that? Lol

That was me. I’m the moderator who said that. But you’re only allowed to discuss experiences in a recovery context.

You’re experiences are amazing to read! I’m am quite enthralled to have met someone who experiences these types of happenings also. I really like that you do a lot of the same type of hobbies as I do as well. I took French for 5 years, but lost most of it since I rarely ever practice it. I wish I was able to practice more meditation each day, I only do it once a day, sometimes two, but I am eager to do more of it.

I hope you are doing well! Please don’t hesitate to let me know on your new experiences (or old). Absolutely love hearing from you about them! It makes me feel a fair amount better to know someone is in the same boat.

Your feelings of relief are mutual - I too am delighted, relieved and overjoyed to meet someone who, not only has similar experiences, but doesn’t try to convince me of anything. You just let me speak my mind for what it is. Oh how appreciative I am of this… I’m sure you know just how difficult it is to come across someone, online or anywhere, that can allow for this kind of a discussion without negative and/or forceful reactions.
I have many many experiences that I could tell you about and I’m sure you do too. I actually have some concerns about sharing my experiences sometimes. There are some beings that I feel that I am always connected with, and they tell me what I am allowed to share with others. As if, sharing some idea or experience would compromise me or would disrupt the natural evolution of another’s mind. This is necessarily pertaining to you though… could be anyone passing by on the forum. Nonetheless, when it feels ok, I am ready and willing to share. Even I really want to share, but they strongly suggest that I do not do it sometimes. Perhaps I misinterpret my feelings, my connections, them or other things, but right now it is what I feel, and if we don’t act according what we feel and know at the current time, then what the heck are we doing??? Lol.
And yeah we do have a lot of similar hobbies - very cool I know what you mean about meditation. It can be difficult to incorporate an ideal amount into each day. Actually I feel that way about every hobby of mine lol. Never enough time for my writing, studying, drawing, music, meditation, physical fitness, nutrition, body care etc, self designated philanthropic operations, social engagements and so on. I day dream about never having to eat or sleep - drinking water is ok though.
Do many people in your life know about you having these experiences? I tried to tell some people and received a very unpleasant response, even from those I felt comfortable confiding in. Since then I’ve kept this stuff quiet. I can deduce from the behaviors of the people I regularly encounter, that this kind of thing is not in their scope of comprehension. Feels a bit like a huge part of my life must be kept a secret in order to preserve a social life and any amount of intellectual stability and accreditation.
Hope you’re well looking forward to your response!

Busy busy day Pretty much just worked all day. I’m all good for the rest of the weekend though since I got my school work done!

I can relate completely to what you had written about beings that you are connected with and not really knowing if you should share your experiences or not with a person. I myself deal with this also. I am continually bombarded with overwhelming sounds and strong feelings that tend to make me suppress my experiences, and not let a peep out. I recently had an elderly client that I met for volunteer work. We met for the first time and the first thing she asked me was, “I want to know your life story.” Hah. I thought to myself, I don’t know if you really want to…but I gave it to her. I didn’t tell all of the experiences since it’s hard to explain in detail how it fits into my life story and how it happens per say, but I told some of them to her. The most amazing part is she didn’t seem to judge me, at least didn’t seem to show it one bit in her tone of voice or reaction. I was so grateful to have come into contact with someone who was open minded enough and non judgmental to listen to what I had been through in my life.
Another thing I can relate with you on is that there is just too many different experiences that it’s hard to write them all down and explain. Some no one would really truly understand except for you solely, based upon your life up until that point lets only you and your consciousness be able to understand certain experiences sometimes that makes it hard to relay it to another person.
Something that stuck out when I was reading, was what are your self designated philanthropic operations? I’m quite curious about that! As for day dreaming, I have internal wishes so to speak, that I would one day not have to eat or become continually tired to where I’d have to sleep, but always feel well rested without any sleep what so ever. My other internal wish was that having not have to eat means not having to go to the bathroom! Ah, how I wish this could be true for me. I hear voices continually, and having to deal with them along with other experiences while I go to the bathroom has sadly made me feel incredibly awkward and embarrassed when I’m alone! This is one of a plethora of the negative effects my experiences have caused me. The overall theme that has produced in my life I feel has been to try to let go of all this “baggage” that I have carried around. It changed my life for the better, although I continue to go through the darkness continually as well each day.

In regards to many people knowing about my experiences. There is probably only one close family member that I can confide in about anything and everything that happens with me and my continuous experiences. I am eternally grateful to have this person in my life. There’s not many people that I know of that I feel would not be prepared to listen to my experiences and have there biases, therefor I almost always have to keep the “mask” on as if I don’t have anything wrong or different happening to me.

I hope your day is going well! I wish you a safe and lovely week!

Glad to hear you understand so well, awesome!
Good that you can confide in a few people. I have found some people that I confide in too.
I know what you mean about baggage. It’s the same process for me too, as I grow in this lifetime.
I have an old friend too haha. He is really cool and has incredible wisdom.
As for the self designated philanthropic operations, let me digress. I have some feeling that a socially advanced society would not use money for exchange as action and pursuit would be motivated by attaining one of two goals; helping self (without the disruption of others), or helping others (without unreasonable disruption to self). Simultaneously, I don’t get too much joy from playing video games or buying things or stuff like that. So I spend a lot of time working on projects and doing these things - philanthropy. So I just befriend lonely old people and talk to them when I can, teach meditation to people in prison, make care packages, other stuff. Just things that I feel would uplift humanity. I have some feeling that as a social species, for those who wish to participate in the social sectors of the experience, each member has a duty to uphold the level of respect they have for oneself, for others too. In this way the individual happiness of each person is a priority. But in this way if the members are absorbed by objects, money, power, then their care and compassion has been divided and undermined. I’m just kind of going stream of thought. Hope you don’t mind a lengthy, nearly rant-like, message haha.
Anyway, hope all is well with you. I’d like to hear about whats been happening with you as of lately. How is school, the experiences, life?

Wow! Honestly that sounds completely amazing. I would absolutely love to do some of the philanthropy projects that you are doing! The thing is, I am incredibly shy, and I can literally feel energy or “something” to that nature when I’m out and about with people that makes me feel I know them and what they are thinking. It is astonishingly hard to open up to people as I am still trying to get use to these new energies, or whatever they may be. Although, if I knew someone who is doing these philanthropic projects and am able to be a partner to help out, that would be prodigious! May I ask, how long have you been doing them for? I have the same outlook you have on not feeling a yearning for the usual materialistic lifestyle. I find like minded people who are like this are one and a million, so meeting you (albeit through the internet) is refreshing to know!

Currently I just finished my last final (yesterday), but have to still finish some written papers for it as well so not fully finished quite yet. Today I have volunteer work and I am looking forward to that. Other than that, not much is happening in my current stream of events. Just taking each day at a time. How about you? Anything new? Sending you the best of wishes!

Hey, sorry for my delay. Been dealing with the workings of life. It feels as if I am torn between two worlds. One of which is here with other people and doing regular things like having a relationship and stuff like that. The other is the world beyond. Can’t really capture that one in words as you know. It’s quite a struggle for me to live in this human body and have the urges that a human would, while perceiving the things that I do. It makes me feel pulled in two very different directions.
I know what you mean about feeling peoples energy. For me, at times its helpful, other times it’s harmful because I’m still so new to it. In a very crowded place I get really stressed out and start to get sick and will pass out if I don’t find a place to exist alone. In just an hour or so it can wreck my whole day lol. Same thing if I go to a movie theater that is full of people. If you experience this, how do you deal with it? I know I need to learn to not be so sponge like and indiscriminately soak up what is around me, but I’m still learning.
The philanthropy I guess has been going on my whole life haha. Even when I was a young I started a local ‘gang’ of kids that would just ride around on bikes looking for people to help. Surprisingly enough our services became quite needed! But more realistically, my efforts became more concentrated and organized in the past 3 years.
It’s refreshing to correspond with you too
So are you off school for the summer now? What volunteer work will you do? I just started a new job and it’s ok. The best thing about it is the downtime amidst the work, as it permits me to study language and I get a lot done actually. So I’m pretty pleased about that. Not too much is new with me. You know, new experiences every day. Struggling to understand things.
Sometimes I think of letting myself exist in the other world more often but I feel a bit afraid sometimes because I have had some negative experiences with some creatures in there. Granted, I’ve also had incredibly positive experiences too. But idk. Sometimes I feel very dejected because I want to fit into this experience on earth as it seems everyone else does - like they were designed to fit here. But all too often it feels as if this planet does not support my software. At times I feel so blessed to feel like I am not of this world, despite being in it, but it’s easy for my frame of mind to slip into something lesser and get twisted up in the sheets.
Feeling weird lately so that’s why I write all of this. I hope you are doing well and I really look forward to hearing about you

Okay, you’ve been adequately warned. This is a site for seeking help overcoming delusional thoughts, not for convincing others they’re true.