I know what you mean. I have a problem with restricting food, but then I end up eating complete crap that I don’t normally eat. Like, I’ll eat a salad for lunch for a few days, and I’ll feel great about myself… but then I’ll grab a donut or a big cookie, at the store. And I don’t really crave those things unless I’m trying to eat healthier. It’s frustrating.
Anyway, my first thought when I read your post, is maybe you could try seeing a nutritionist? Perhaps they could help you lose weight in a healthy way.
Fu*k dieting is so hard. I go strong for a couple months but I always seem to fall back into poor eating habits. I’m overweight for my height, by a good amount.
My friend has a lot of struggles there. She jas recently found some success by setting mandatory minimums as well as maximums. So there is a range. And when she feels the urge to restrict further, she looks at the study about how extreme calorie restriction leads to long term gaining weight.
I’m working on losing a few lbs myself and it’s hard I keep getting the thoughts “gotta eat” “it’s all you’ll get” “eat faster” it’s really hard no matter how your eating disorder goes in
She has also shifted her goals away from size based things and towards stuff like “can run X distance without needing a break” and “resting heart rate below 90”
I have similar issues.
I’ll restrict my eating and keep escalating the restriction until I snap and binge eat.
I’ll lose weight, even if it’s done the healthy way, and once people start complenting it I feel awful, like it’s not deserved because I’m cheating. Either by starving or by eating crap foods.
Like now, I’m walking like 5km a day and naturally losing weight from it.
I feel like I need to keep my food intake down to maintain the weightloss, I have these thoughts daily and then end up overcompensating by binging.
People treat me like I’m fat by choice because I’m not putting in more of an effort.
But I’d rather be 90kg and free, than 70kg and constantly worrying about food.