i agree. funny you should say drone because i was starting to think you were an AI program sent by the cia for monitoring purposes
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Like I said, I heard it all before, and I been there. It actually took me a while to āreprogramā or unlearn those whack beliefs. They can actually be hard to shake.
i think everything is connected/meaningful in ways that others in my life donāt see as related at all. itās really, really difficult for me to set aside those connections and stop interpreting what i see as signs and patterns and messages of sorts. a lot of this is chalked up by my care team as being part of my ādelusional frameworksā and i have a hard time at this point even when iām not out of my head or inpatient not seeing them.
i guess my point is that i see them always now. but maybe i always have and thatās the propensity for my getting diagnosed this whole time? iām unsure. but i do see patterns, yes, definitely.
Lol, that made my night homes. haha.
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thats like me too. i hope i dont need to get back on meds ill just stay away from the conspiracies maybe itll go away
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Yeah I believe you should do everything in your power to stay saneā¦ and if that doesnt work then go on the meds. Meds should be a last resort because theyāre dangerous. Iāve been off mine for about a month now and Iām hanginā in fine. But yeah stay away from anything thatāll just āfeed the fireā. And surround yourself with positive thingsā¦ not things that are based solely on fear and paranoia.
good point. and im not saying that because i think your threatening me. right now psychosis is based on interest, not good
Lol i knew that would pop into your head! (about the pills threats) Get some sleep dawg!
i take a lot of meds and they do help, sorta. they help me be able to set aside. without them, iām just immersed in it. i donāt know if iām explaining that well, but they take up all of my time. literally. and i will just spend every waking minute fixated on nothing but that. nothing matters as much as they do. itās like, i still struggle with them, but they donāt consume me always. theyāre right there though. waiting. i feel like those thoughts are the hardest to remove, and oftentimes i think thereās a reason for that, tooāmostly that iām not sick. but then, that makes me get immersed again. itās so slippery and tricky. i have to actively set them aside as best i can or they suck me in. whoosh.
i think itās possible if you put them out of sight out of mind you could just avoid. why not? well, i mean, i donāt really know. but i do think that spending so many years immersed in them is why theyāre so hard for me to shake now. nipping it in the bud seems like maybe it would make it possible to stay afloat. i wish you the best with it and with staying away and them going away.
Yeah man, thatās why I donāt take the meds. Because they dont work!!! I got over these theories by unlearning them.
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iām curious, if you donāt mind saying: how did you do that? did you use a type of therapy or groups or learn to do the whole reality testing thing better? i would love to reduce my meds or be able to stop without hassle. iām on order so i canāt right now anyway, but one dayā¦ i dare to dream.
my meds definitely fall short of doing a lot of things, like voices especially, but i feel like if i could master the thinking maybe the voices wouldnāt matter as much.