I moved back to my hometown and started hanging out with some old friends. They were doing meth and I ended up trying it. I started off doing it once a week and was fine so i kept doing it. Eventually I was doing it every day. I just watched myself took my meds and got plenty of sleep. I was stable enough on meds. Then one day on my couch I’m sitting there and some cars drive by. Some more cars came by and I said to myself “my meds aren’t working”. I just felt myself starting to slip away. It was kinda weird cause I didn’t do anything different. Even though meth was probably taking some kind of toll on my mind, this was like a sudden change. And I noticed it. After that I was gone.
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In my case I went to my last rave and took a bunch of coke, speed, mdma etc. I didn’t get too high cuz of meds. I was smoking pot daily aswell. But I didn’t become psychotic until a couple of months later.
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PPL I just noticed that there are tons of us who used drugs before illness. It’s really really clearly connected to SZ or SZA or whatever.
And I am literally hating myself even because of the fact that I smoked weed.
Hugs for ya’ll. Hugs for those reasons why we used drugs…
and for the sake of hell, we have to never use drugs again.
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I also felt kinda safe doing it especially with the protection of antipsychotics. And the people around me that had been on it for a while were fine. It’s a terrible drug and the last time I did it was in 2016. My friends and I had fun though. We’d stay up all night in his basement playing cod, foosball, and blow glass. One dude had just finished apprenticing and could make some really cool stuff out of glass. It was fun with those guys, but doing meth was a mistake.
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" The long-term outlook depends on what organs are affected. Permanent damage may occur, which may cause:
- Seizures, stroke, and paralysis
- Chronic anxiety and psychosis (severe mental disorders)
- Decreased mental functioning
- Heart problems
- Kidney failure that requires dialysis (kidney machine)
- Destruction of muscles, which can lead to amputation
A large methamphetamine overdose can cause death."
Okay I am reading it again… and all I can say is that I am lucky.
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Is that describing an overdose? I’ve looked into meth use and the long term negative effects. Basically what I got was your brain gets back it’s normal functioning after being off it for some time but you can still have some movement issues. Also it depends on how much damage was done to your brain. But what I’ve come across is that you can pretty much fully recover especially if you were only on it for a short period of time. I looked this stuff up cause I had concerns about possible long term issues from my own use. I was surprised by the positive outlooks of recovery from meth use.
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yuup it’s about overdose.
What kind of movement issues can appear? Kind of interesting
I believe what meth left for me (but it’s also could be caused by ablify) is huuuge anxiety.
And maybe some problems with brain work. And my language is I believe a bit affected, but right now I am the only one which notices that.
And the good thing is, (It’s only my opinion), if person has insight and stops drug at the right time, recovery is very possible for almost everyone. **and if person wants to do something about it. as they say it all starts with a wish
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I do believe my anxiety is worse after meth use or I’m more on edge. I was gang stalked during that period which didn’t help. But yeah I agree on the anxiety part or feeling more on edge. I think the movement issues described were kinda maybe I’m guessing cause I watched the video a long time ago but i think it’s an exaggerated movement or quicker movements. Idk really. I just remember reading that you can develop movement stuff that can stick with you.
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hell… gang stalked 
This is serious… 
it could cause very bad paranoia. Well I would be paranoid if gang stalked me.
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It’s not really a street gang of people. It’s a phenomenon that people around the world describe as being victims of. It’s targeted harassment of an individual by gangstalkers. Not like bandanna gang stalkers but a coordinated harassment campaign. No one really knows who these people are, why it’s done, and who is involved or behind it. It’s gaining recognition around the world, but most experts believe it’s delusional. There was a time where I would tell you it wasn’t. Nowadays I couldn’t say.
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Sounds like delusional to me aswell
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I hope it is cause if it’s not we got some real problems.
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Woah. I needed to translate it… but hell.
I dunno, I never experienced this phenomena. I rather was afraid of being stalked on camera, or that my pc was hacked… and I had this fear for every boyfriend I had, this fear started from my psychosis.
And the strange part is, I am afraid of obsessive people, but I was obsesive during my psychosis. Strange.
And the part about those gangstalkers… never heard or thought of it. I will read some stuff because such things are interesting for me 
IDK why.
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With me it was a long, slow process downhill. I did hallucinate some, but not that much. There were a lot of things I’ve seen that I didn’t know if they were hallucinations or not. Sometimes I would hear someone two blocks away talking about me. One time in the army when we were in formation I saw this guy on the roof of the barracks. That roof was way too steep for someone to be dancing around on it, and the guy didn’t have any business being up there. Then there were things that were no doubt an hallucination. I’ve been out of contact with reality before, but it didn’t hit me like a freight train. It was more a gradual, downhill process. I didn’t talk about the questionable things I saw, so I never really resolved them.
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I’d watch a short YouTube video if you’re interested. I think Vice did a pretty good one. It goes deep though. Support groups, tactics on how to deal with it, products you can buy, techniques of harassment, and theories about the phenomenon. It goes deep. I would just watch a YouTube video though.
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And yeah as I read some stuff… I had similar thoughts about police and government during psychotic episode. There were times when I thought that police is out to get me.
Also, I felt like government knows everything about me🤷♀️ but this was really really delusional.
I thought every person in the street knows my life story, and even wants to help…
I believe even age in which we have psychosis can have effect of delusion themes. Like I said my psychosis was very, very extreme.
Yeaaah good idea. I will go to youtube
By the way. Not sayin you were delusional,
Just it reminds me those times when I thought everyone knows everything about me and even are out to get me
The odd thing about the delusional take is that people from all around the world describe the same type of harassment. Doctors lawyers regular people have been targeted. I might if heard that the psychiatric community was maybe looking at it as a specific type of delusional illness that needs to be understood. Pretty weird illness if you ask me.
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I can’t really describe it. It seemed so real at the time. Constant harassment during that time. I honestly hope it was delusional. I was deep in my meth induced psychosis during that period.
It’s very weird illness.
I need to say one thing- till this day I get a bit paranoid when I remember the whole stuff. Because it felt so vivid and real.
And I thought the same- why ppl with SZ have so similar delusions.
And I found that video on vice. I will watch it
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