Havent been here for a while. Was talking with girl friends from past.It seems to brought only pain.
I’m advanced sz and it was suficient for me.
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I called a gal i met in grade 7, she was happy to hear from me, but she is happy and married now, mostly I was ill and was calling to see if she was in on the plot to get me, without letting her knowing what I was up to. She had my number to call back but over time she never did.
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Disappointment, great one for me. Should stay away from five hours talks until three AM.
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Didnt think to get involved in relationships or anything like that, just this lockdown got into me 
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Funny how you mention that — I have frequent dreams about people I knew in my childhood, meeting them 23 years later — and they don’t even care about meeting me after all those years and basically walk away –
Really it is kind of a bummer 
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I had a best friend whom I’ve known from like since I was 7 til 19.
I think she was the closest friend I ever had.
Idk if I will b able to reconennct with her, right know it feels too difficult anyways.
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My gf left me since since I was diagnosed. Its good that I didn’t let her do what she tried to do, getting pregnant from me. Not only she would have stolen my parents’s money for child support after leaving me but my child would probably be schizophrenic. I am unable to work and my parents would have put me in the streets to stop paying her.
My best childhood friend is now a cardiologist and stopped talking to me since I was diagnosed. He blocked me after I wrote nonsense on FB during psychosis.
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I dont call anyone from my past - from school, or from my old town. You could count them on one hand anyway. Too much has gone on since they knew me, im a different person now. Some were scared anyway - when the they found out from the gossip grapevine i was mentally ill.
Im honestly happier being a billy-no-mates. Its less complicated. I dont need reassurance anymore from people to know im doing fine.
I don’t call people from my past. I know there’s good reason the relationship ended so there’s no need to rekindle it. Saves me a lot of heartache.
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I just got in contact with a few. They were understanding and compassionate about my situation.
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People are not changing. Only new thing I told them is that I’m sz. It’s bitter feeling when someone uses it against you.
People from my building are putting their masks on when i pass by bc they probably think it’s safer to avoid getting virus from schizophrenic.
It feels like lepper.
Today in front of bakery i spoke to a street cleaner who survived meningitis as child.
As a result he limps on one leg and hes one eye is in the corner.
He said when i asked him to buy him something, that people are avoiding him bc they think hes drunk.
Imagine carrying this burden for a lifetime.
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That’s really awful. I feel for him. People can be so mean. I feel for you too. What do you think about not telling people you have sz? It might spare you some heartache. I don’t tell anyone. I talk about my depression and anxiety instead. It’s more accepted.
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I think it’s safer in this situation when people are on the edge you need to “warn” them that you have it. It’s because it’s safer to tell them by your self then they hear from others.
I don’t have exact sz diagnosys, but some kind of psychosis.
Thing is to fight stigma everywhere. I think it’s time to fight for my right to have MI and show people that, at least, we’re not danger to them and their families.
I become volunteer just to prove that point. Got good feedback.
I’m not afraid for my self. Some women won’t find it amusing to get f book invitation from sz, but we must take a stand.
And yes, I would wear sz t shirt everywhere just to ditch those idiot prejudice about us. Doctors won’t do that for us.
Ill open a new thread for this
They didn’t want to talk to me because they felt they had to move on but I was just fine, my life, was working and well educated.
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I’m still friends with half a dozen peeps from high school. I see them regularly and talk a lot. Most saw me go through psychosis and depressive breaks. Lately I’ve been organizing get togethers every month. Some of my friends are like me and aren’t working anymore. It’s good to catch up.
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I called my x boyfriend I had over twenty years ago.
We remained friends after we broke up and he spat on my face but we forgave each other.
We get in touch once every couple of years.
My boyfriend doesn’t know I called him because he doesn’t want me in contact with my xz.
But this guy is one of my closest and we are strictly platonic.
If my boyfriend finds out he might break up with me even though it’s innocent.
I have not contacted anyone else because they stopped replying my email and just ignored me and made it clear they want nothing to do with me.
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@Truemist8, same situation over here.Girlfriends I called were not exactly girlfriends, more women I was in contact time after time. They had complicated lives and I was just searching someone my age to get through this nonsence of lockdown and mutual understanding.But it seems that people are too selfish to care for another.
As I recall, you were in celibacy for longer time. I told them from start that I’m not interested in relationships, or sex, since I’m alright not to have it.Maybe my lack of interest in looking at them that way, like soul mates brought our conversations to the end.Im glad it ended
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