I socialized tonight. It went so so. I didn’t enjoy myself really but I never do. It was impossible to concentrate on conversations when people talked to me and I had poverty of speech and a blank void mind. I only socialize because my therapist forces me to. I really would rather not.
I have plans tomorrow and I would rather just not do anything. I’d rather my life be over.
I’m sorry you feel this way. If you really don’t feel like socializing tomorrow, don’t… maybe take a break to recover from today,.
luna noir is right. stop whatever is causing you to panic in h ow miserably difficult it is. maybe you could top it off with something you truly enjoy.
maybe you should contact your therpist and let he.she know how you are feeling/doing.