I am supposed to socialize tonight. After last night I’m feeling pretty glum about it. (I sat in a corner while everybody bragged)
I am getting anxious (have generalized anxiety disorder and sz). I need to shower and get ready but have no motivation.
My friends tonight don’t brag usually though. But I still feel blank in my mind and have poverty of speech. I hate sz. I’m so ■■■■■■■ pissed at sz.
I say go for it. A new day, a new try.
I find it much easier one on one. I get lost in groups and don’t talk.
I’m not going to tell you whether you should or shouldn’t. Thats your choice.
But if you do, maybe plan out some of your conversation topics and what your going to say. Maybe write it down and rehearse it a bit. Then when you are drawing a blank, you have some things that you might fall back on. I don’t know. I know its not very spontaneous but maybe it would give you a few bright spots in conversation. This is just something off the top of my head that you could try.