I think I improved as a person, part of it is increasing my meds dosage and part of it is social interactions here, realizing my problem is the sz. When I joined here I was on 3mg Risperidone and eventhough my positives were gone, I realized my thoughts were disorganized and inappropriate, I also had anger issues. Being here made me realize I wasn’t stable mentally.
Also before joining here I often messed with my meds skipping or stopping them as I refused to believe I have sz likely for life.
Now I am stable on 5mg and no issues of the above.
Its scary to think that you have something wrong with your brain and that its uncurable etc. Its not strange try and deny it etc. Im glad you came around to accepting it though. Its very hard to treat an illness when you deny its existance.
AP put you out of traffic
For me all my worries and what drives me moves into the background on 200mg Amisulpride.
I still “mess” with my medication after 5 years of AP (risperidone, aripiprazole, haloperidol, cariprazine, quiteapine, amisulpride is my story).
I take the current amisulpride in liquid form so its easy to change dosages.
And I’m thinking to myself ~“I take so and so many drops”
I guess you could say AP take away my deviousness
This site promotes a lot of better understanding amongst those who see for themselves by joining
Back in 2015, I had no insight and with the help of people here I have learned so much about the condition
I know sometimes I am not in a fit state to fully take advice, but I appreciate everyone who takes time out of their days to contribute and try and help others out
You do sound stable. I haven’t heard much crazy stuff from you.
But you’ve had heavy psychosis and it leaves trauma and its marks.
I also think your weight isn’t helping with your mental well-being. I would try to work on that through walking and limiting food.
But I believe in you. You can get even better!
I didn’t improve since 2017.
Actually I’m worse
I am not psychotic. But socially I have deteriorated. Anxiety has got intense. So does lack of energy.
I feel slow. Confused. Feel like an idiot among people I mingle with.
Yea I have low energy and feel tired with no motivation. I think its sz negative symptoms.
I don’t know what it is. I struggled with lack of energy since childhood. As far back as I can remember.
After psychotic episodes it has become prominent.
You seem very level headed @Aziz. Have not seen you write anything that would be considered psychotic.
I do understand that you struggle with the negatives though. It must suck to be in bed a lot but it is a good thing that you can video game everyday for a while.
Keep fighting brother.
-S
I think you are doing quite well @Aziz
But I know how crippling those negative symptoms can be.
I was on 8 mgs Risperidone, 95 mgs Haldol, and a mood stabilizer I don’t remember at the same time. To be honest i was being treated by a bad doctor.
The risperidone is probably sedating you. All ap’s have a sedative effect. If you have no positives, would you consider tapering off your depot? If the positives come back then just take meds again.
I was on 6mg before, went down recently to 4mg but had symptoms, thats why now I am on 5mg.
I am on pills, not injection depot btw
Do you not feel as if the meds are damaging you mentally and physically? I feel like nobody should play God with our neurochemistry. I don’t believe we have defective/hyperactive d2 receptors. There must be more going on.
People under estimate the power of exercise; whether aerobic or anaerobic. If someone is depressed the Doctor wouldn’t prescribe an SSRI first…they would tell the person to change their lifestyle; maybe more exercise, better sleep, no alcohol and cigarettes etc.
But maybe I am oversimplifying our conditions. Everyone is different I guess. I like being off meds.
Psychosis is lifethreatening, I almost die everytime I get psychosis. I prefer not being crazy and not being suicidal/homicidal on meds than being those off meds. Everyone is different though some can live off meds. Not me.
Ah OK. When I have a psychotic episode I’m usually a danger to myself; too many grandiose delusions and bizarre sci fi themes too.