I think I improved as a person, part of it is increasing my meds dosage and part of it is social interactions here, realizing my problem is the sz. When I joined here I was on 3mg Risperidone and eventhough my positives were gone, I realized my thoughts were disorganized and inappropriate, I also had anger issues. Being here made me realize I wasn’t stable mentally.
Also before joining here I often messed with my meds skipping or stopping them as I refused to believe I have sz likely for life.
Its scary to think that you have something wrong with your brain and that its uncurable etc. Its not strange try and deny it etc. Im glad you came around to accepting it though. Its very hard to treat an illness when you deny its existance.
For me all my worries and what drives me moves into the background on 200mg Amisulpride.
I still “mess” with my medication after 5 years of AP (risperidone, aripiprazole, haloperidol, cariprazine, quiteapine, amisulpride is my story).
I take the current amisulpride in liquid form so its easy to change dosages.
And I’m thinking to myself ~“I take so and so many drops”
Do you not feel as if the meds are damaging you mentally and physically? I feel like nobody should play God with our neurochemistry. I don’t believe we have defective/hyperactive d2 receptors. There must be more going on.
People under estimate the power of exercise; whether aerobic or anaerobic. If someone is depressed the Doctor wouldn’t prescribe an SSRI first…they would tell the person to change their lifestyle; maybe more exercise, better sleep, no alcohol and cigarettes etc.
But maybe I am oversimplifying our conditions. Everyone is different I guess. I like being off meds.
Psychosis is lifethreatening, I almost die everytime I get psychosis. I prefer not being crazy and not being suicidal/homicidal on meds than being those off meds. Everyone is different though some can live off meds. Not me.