I wonder how many can identify with this.
I can definitely relate to this. I noticed a lot of changes in myself before my acute phase of sz. Isolation was a big one. I pretty much locked myself up in my room, I didn’t want to be around anyone. During one of my relapses, I could not answer the phone and deal with people. My delusions kicked in, and I was so scared to answer the phone, that I began to believe I was sending people to hell if I answered the phone. And if I didn’t, they would eventually go to heaven. I was even more scared of the phone, because I had been told that I had made multiple 911 calls during my first psychosis.
I don’t isolate as much anymore, but I keep a very small circle of friends. It freaks me out to hang out with new people. I feel like I can’t be myself and just feel like I’m acting strange. I also don’t trust that people are nice. It takes a lot for me to trust someone and not think that they are thinking negatively about me.
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I have no friends so it is hard to isolate from friends I don’t have . I do isolate from people in the sense that I hardly ever go out,but even if I didn’t I’d struggle to form friendships.
When there were drop ins locally I went to them until I had a falling out with the national branch of the charity, and then felt my local branch that runs the charity would be against me too. I stopped going then and by the time I got past the paranoia they were ready to close down the drop ins.
Most of my contact is via forums and I have been known in the past to reduce interaction and isolate myself when it comes to forum interactions. Not felt the need to do this for a while though.
Re the telephone- I’m not proactive in using it preferring others to phone me but will answer and talk if they call me .
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I’ve gone through some deep periods of isolation. Yes… sometimes I just don’t have the strength or motivation to reach out.
Other times I’m sure it will all go badly. I also HATE answering the phone. I’m also bad at calling out. My sneaky brained thinking kicks in and I just feel like people are just being nice asking me out… they don’t really want me to take them up on the offer.
Lately… I’ve been trying to be more open. Just like everything… It very hard to get going. But once I’m out… then I’m Ok.
I think what helps me is I live with a younger sister and she is pretty active. So she does help me get out of the house and doing something.
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Hello, everyone…
First, I just want to say that I appreciate how you could relate to the blog post. It really means a lot to me. Not just as someone with a schizophrenic disorder who struggles with isolation; but also because I am Mommahood295. This is my blog and I wrote “Detour of Isolation”.
The isolation combined with the paranoia was eating at me. I had to put it in words.
Oh, and I hate the phone.
Best to you all…
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