for me it is worse because during psychosis I am not very aware of myself. I am lost deluded in another world… a different reality and most of the time it is much nicer. Grandiose… love… power… LOL and when I the medication kicks in and I am back to reality - I am left with depression, humiliation, bitternesss… resentment of the psychosis.
My psychosis is beautiful though.
top the depression and resentment with dumb people. I am left alone… at least I have a nice cat and nice shoes I guess.
My psychosis is both grandiose and fearful (and often involves the police at the end!). But I also lose weight really quick when I’m psychotic cuz I frequently get scared about the food supply being poisoned. Then, afterwards, I get depressed about being in the hospital and feel like a fat cow, plus I have to fix the financial damage I usually do while psychotic. I asked my pdoc for Lexapro last week but she doesn’t want to give it to me cuz she thinks it’ll make me manic again. I was almost like, yeah, well, bring it on, it feels way better than THIS s@#t!
Same. Now that I can look back w clarity on my actions when I was psychotic, I get so, so embarrassed about the things I said and did.
Imagine on top of the humiliation, having very handsome young university students as doctors. 
damn it! we are supposed to go through this after dying only.