I tripped myself out at work today. I felt disconnected from own mind. Felt like I was a robot going through my movements. Its hard to explain it… kind of like dissociating?
I didnt feel like myself, like I didnt know who I was. I almost gave myself a panic attack thinking thoughts like “im a living being in a massive universe, what are the chances of that?” And “who am I?”
I know that sounds wierd, i’m having trouble explaining it.
Thanks for reading guys, I hope I dont trip out again tomorrow during my shift
I feel disconnected from my own mind so much. But we might be talking about in different ways as I don’t question my place in the universe when this happens.
I just loose touch with my centre and it is not pleasant compared to when I’m with my centre
@Charles_Foster - I take Ativan for my panic attacks. Cipralex for my anxiety. Olanzapine for my paranoia. You’re right, it could of been a mini panic attack. I didnt get the physical symptoms of one but I got the mental ones.
I’ve had depersonalization. Very unpleasant. Like look at my hand n like is this myhand, my parents who r they,panic, with friends too. lose your identity so bad I had freaked out at restaurant. Have to wash face in mirror. I was on clozapine. Hang in there man
I don’t know if I’ve had depersonilzation or dissociating.
My mind is usually busy thinking about something. Once I realized how my mind operated and that my mind is always thinking I started learning new things to think about and how to think better with CBT so my mind would be more productive.
Sometimes my mind goes blank, very occasional I’ll “zone out” as I call it when I’m watching TV or something, but I don’t think it’s a clinical problem. In fact I enjoy it because my mind is at rest for a while.
My job is driving, if I started having these problems I’d probably get in an accident. I have to be alert at all time. There are bad drivers, pedestrians, school children, etc… on the road.
When anxiety provoking things begin to happen, practice positive self talk (I’ve experienced this before, nothing bad happened then, nothing bad will happen now, it will pass, etc…), take deep breaths, and if it proceeds to a panic attack and is necessary then take an Ativan.
Update: my shift went well, no depersonalization today… the Ativan probably helped me. Im not taking it tomorrow though ( I try to avoid taking it back to back days) so hopefully tomorrow goes well.
When I was 23, I had a very intense episode of depersonalization and derealization. I was at work, like you. I was totally disconnected from my surroundings and from myself. It was scary. Your experience sounds similar to mine, the way you described it.
That was when I started researching causes of depersonalization and derealization. I came across SzA… and well… I’m diagnosed as SzA, now!!
How are you doing today? Your shift is over, right?