Demisexuslity is not feeling any sort of sexual attraction to someone without forming an emotional bond with them.
I really feel I found a description that fits.
All those times I struggled in the dating world and dating apps
I just never felt sexual attractions to people unless I talked to them and they let me in and get to KNOW THEM. when they wouldn’t let me in I’d completely not be able to form that kind of feeling. I dated this guy who did let me in but after discovering he was not who he said he was he stopped looking attractive to me.
My partner now I didn’t feel any attraction to when we met. Nothing. It only happened when we talked. Now I cannot see anything more beautiful. It’s weird.
Finding love and companionship is a good thing. I’m straight but before my psychosis I had this desire to kiss a guy I worked with. It really caused me some concern but getting on meds and stuff sorted me out a lot better. Still. I don’t mind knowing a person has some game or brains or such. I think that emotional liking is a good thing in the long run. Not so sure of labels these days. We all end up where we do.
I think confusion happened to me during my psychosis is well. I suddenly had this confusion over a girl which was weird as I don’t identify as being attracted in that way to females.
I guess getting close to someone is nice but it’s really scary as I don’t want them to feel scared.