Tonight I’ve been thinking back on some of my delusions. I cannot believe that I was so scrambled in my mind. I remember some one talked to me about a car…the next thing I would see that same car driving on the road and I thought that it was all planned to frustrate me or mock me or to drive me crazy.
I use to think about all the bad things I did in my life and everywhere I went I saw or heard something that reminded me of those stuff and I thought that every body knew about my past and that they were out to get me. You see I once made a list of all my wrong doings in my life and I saved it on a cd. That cd got stollen and I thought it landed in the wrong hands. I suspected it was the government who tried to make me confess to the police so that I can be sent to jail.
Those days were terrible and I deffinately do not want to go through that hell again. I do not like to think back on those days but it came back to me now and I thought I’d share. I’m so glad it’s under control with my meds atm.
These kinds of coincidences can really mess you up. Even people without schizophrenia marvel at them I recently read an article in Oprah magazine by Martha
Beck about all the coincidences she has encountered. The thing is notto have paranoia about them. I myself have been deluded by ideas of reference. It can be very frightening, like the world is revolving around you. Medications have helped me with delusions but I continue to notice coincidences. I just think that that is very interesting…
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Glad you’re better on meds 
I also feel a lot better in regard to my delusions of reference now that I’m on them, I’m overall better I must say!
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Coincidences happen. One thing I’ve learned on meds. I definitely noticed them happening a lot more off meds though. I thought God stopped giving me encounters with delusions of reference when I was on meds in order to ■■■■ with me. Couldn’t win. Now I’m so used to not having delusions I don’t worry about it anymore.
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I used to see hints and clues everywhere that my Truman Show delusion was real. I haven’t seen any hints or clues in months due to meds.
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Lately I’ve been having coincidences about coincidences. I think we are more sensitive to it with schizophrenia. By the way, I’m on 30 mg of Abilify too. My delusions come and go. I think it’s human to look for patterns but I am learning to ignore delusions when i have them.
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