For me is like a nightmare.
For me itās like talking to someone on the phone who can see out of your eyes, and hear your thoughts, and see whateverās in your mind. It is so real I still canāt accept that Iām a sz.
I hear mostly music, so vivid I canāt tell if itās coming from the internal or external space.
And yet itās also as though I have two jabbermouths (male and female) talking back and forth in my head, but I canāt understand what theyāre saying because they speak in tongues. Occasionally, thereās a vivid unreality unfolding in my headāconversations I canāt have, thoughts that arenāt mine. All internal.
With grey noise, it gets worse.
I hear internal voices
It feels that there are two other people inside my head and Iām not alone - the spirit people are with me
Dreaming while Iām awake
I have internal ones mainly, but also some external ones such as, whispers, and talking through the wall
I have external voices.
The voices I currently hear are mostly negative voices from an unknown source who are attempting to harass me.
They are incredibly stupid and are racist, homophobic, and offensive on every level.
There are also voices that are positive and they in contrast seem normal and completely plausible when they talk to the negative ones.
Like someone is standing behind me and whispering things in my ears.
Sometimes they talk, sometimes they yell, sometimes they roar.
Itās like Iām hearing someone whoās not me expressing their thoughts.
Iāve never heard a voice/s, but I have thought, thoughts that no longer match my normal āinner voiceā, it may get worse eventually, but right now I usually catch myself and either blank my mind or rationalize it, and it goes away.
Before I was medicated I could hallucinate orchestral music every once in a while when I was resting in bed. I would listen to NPR and their programs, get a spiritual sensation of awe and in my head it would become a sort of energetic mood and from there I just had to kind of tune into a sensation I could feel and boom. Orchestral music.
Only happened a couple times, but it was such a wonder to feel music inside my brain and not through my ears.
Couldnāt describe the difference its just something you know. One of the few perks of this exclusive club.
My voices are just like hearing a T.V. or radio playing in a room upstairs. You hear a main announcer talking, and a lot of other people behind him talking in the background. Only there are no T.V.'s or radioās on anywhere in the house.
This is what mine is like too!
I hear people talking outside my head, the only time I have heard them inside was after smoking some cannabis.
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