Well I sit here at the group home in the middle of the night wondering when the coronavirus will end it all. (isn’t it funny how often we focus on how it might end rather than enjoy life?). I have high blood pressure, diabetes, and take drugs that compromise my immunity. I may be too young but I’m just the right age for death’s touch. I worry about my Mother who is the oldest person I’m close too but know there’s a small chance for a much more tragic outcome in my family.
There has been much turnover here and I wonder how life would be if no one showed up one morning (the person still there is supposed to stay there but human nature dictates that the person can’t hang around forever.). At first I see a brief giddy moment followed by “Oh damn there’s some guys here who would be dangerous without their meds.” So I contemplate calling the Psych Ward folks or the law while leaving my door locked. I hope I wouldn’t wait too long to be too incompetent to make the call, or have someone show up while the authorities mopped us up. It’s just some worries of things on a night with a low temperature reminding me that if the coronavirus can be killed with warmth it’s not here yet, and that even the most stable situations can fall apart.
Don’t know what to tell you… I think you have a great sense of humor from the few posts I’ve seen. Do you get that a lot?
The voices think I do. The rest of the World doesn’t necessarily agree.
I see… well on here you’re extremely disarming and have really good humor. I would like very much to try and borrow a page from your book.
Your voices are kind though? I dont hear them but in a funny way I’m jealous sometimes.
with what ???
If I take my meds they are relatively kind. If I don’t they are very cruel.
That I have a sense of humor.
Deep down?? Or up front with people??
Occasionally someone will laugh at my humor when I say it. Most of the time (especially lately) they don’t respond. I will admit I am more nervous in social situations and rarely come out as all that funny or interesting. When I write I don’t feel the anxiety as much. However my tendency to write satire does turn some people off. I have grown used to my voices (in a medicated form) and the humor comes out more freely. However what humors my voices may not humor the rest of the World.
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