for context i’m a night shift worker. i’ve been nocturnal for 5 years now. it wasn’t a voluntary choice, i just couldn’t sleep at night, only during the day. i’m still like this.
anyway, i’m currently on “day schedule” which i guess is just a “normal” sleep schedule to most, because i have to be for my happenings this week. it sucks. too much is happening around me and things move too quickly.
there’s a tranquility of being up all throughout the night, because everyone else is asleep and i can do whatever i need to without the constant anxiety of being interrupted by any one thing. the world is easier for me to cope with without so many humans walking around.
don’t get me wrong. i love the sun. i still get sunlight and go outside as much as i can. but living under a persistent anxiety like this, 16 hours a day, is horrible. the noise can be really unbearable
I was a nightwalker until perphenazine. Literally switching meds flipped my sleep schedule involuntarily. I loved the nights and had a lot of good times. The day does kinda suck, but it’s the only time that I can get things done. Or do anything other than sit in my apartment. I don’t have any advice. My day program helps me the most. I kinda miss the nights and the mania I had back then on my old med.
I like staying up all night. But my doctor appointments are in the daytime. I have a flexible schedule: tonight I’ll be awake all night. It’s a bit lonely and worse than the daytime.
