Hey dude. I’m on a bipolar high right now, can’t sleep lately but I feel amazing somehow lol.
Umm into words… One of them, my younger brother says he can’t be himself in a relationship. My cousin, my age, lost his mom and after that went into depression and the girl flipped on him. And the other, my dad is slippin I’d say. He’s always able to pull the most attractive girls ever, this one was even like 10 years younger than him but he’s got health issues and isn’t stable enough for a relationship.
My issue with dating is women get attached and I don’t know how to navigate that without being triggered. I wish I met more women with my profile but it’s super rare. Women are territorial, and you have to constantly make an effort to deal with that. Maybe I’m just crazy and make women go crazy because of it?
I don’t want casual sex because it’s against my values. And causes psychosis.
I don’t want a long term relationship because someone coming closer means they bump into all my trauma stuff. Which is fun for, well, none of the involved.
I also seek out men with issues, which is a risk to kid.
My ex and I have fun platonic moments. That’s good enough.