I Am Currently Under The Delusion That I Have Passed On From The Living Realm. And Am Currently in a Sense of Purgatory. I Died in My Sleep. Woke Up. And Am Living in The Shadows/Memories of Everyone Still Alive.
Which Doesn’t Explain How I Can Communicate. Unless I Am Somehow Living in Everyone Else’s Brain. But!, How Does That Explain, Me Talking to More Than One Person at a Time?.
Connectivity, And Living Eternal Webs Perhaps. But That Thought is Slightly Overwhelming.
I Am Taking My Meds. And Have Been For Years Now. Day By Long Day.
Has Anyone Been Through Anything Like Thus?. Or, Has Anyone Heard of Anything Like Thus Before?.
‘Relating to or Affecting The Human Spirit or Soul as Opposed to Material or Physical Things’
‘A Supposed Intuitive Faculty Giving Awareness Not Explicable in Terms of Normal Perception’
I Am Slightly Confused. . . . . . .
But Strange to Note, The Sphere of Fear, (As of Right Now, in The Depth of Midnight), The Sphere of Fear Seems Like Only of Slight Fraction of Endless Worry. Without The Fear of Death, Life Begins Once Again. As I Hold Tight to Commonsense, Intuition, And Instincts.
When I tried to kill myself with sleeping pills. And the next day I was in a psychiatric hospital. Everything felt weird around me, like never before. And then it dawned upon me that maybe I died in my sleep and that I’m now living in a mental energy dimension of all memories of ppl stunted plus my stored imagination capability. At first it freaked me out when I realised that. Then I decided to enjoy the fact that I could be myself since everyone around me is just my stored imagination energy even though it felt kind of real.at the same time, to a limited extent.
Then I decided to ask the nurses if this amount of pills has the capability to kill me. Eventually, in a week, the dead feeling left me, maybe because I was slowly being medicated. And also feeling more relaxed (less stressed).
My advice would be maybe you need a med increase cos you are defo not dead as hard as it may be to feel that. If u are not on a high dose that is. Check if you’ve got any stressors in your life that you can adjust. Very Healthy lifestyle might make a difference too.
Hopefully this feeling will pass its not exactly nice to feel like you are not on the earthly realm properly.
You enjoy talking to more than one person at the same time?
Idk what to say. Well For me personally having gone through what I went through, I would want to do something to stop it simply cos I fear it being a slippery slope to worse delusions or hallucinations as has always been the case in my past. Plus idk if its good for the health of my brain…
As The Sun Awakes Today. Beaming Warmth Breath Upon Thus Side of The Earth. I Shall Quietly Walk to The Nearest Village Shop. Peacefully And Graciously. With Kindness in My Steps, Tracing The Wings of The Lushtaflurriah’s, (Birds). As The Order Today is, Almost Like Any Other With Plastic Coins in My Pockets. A Soda. And a Few Herbal Supplements. Or!, Maybe Perhaps Wash All of That Away, And Instead Purchase a Smoke Ring Vaporizer. For I Am Strapped With Less Coins Than I Expected at Thus Point in The Week. The Weather May Become of Rain Droplets Later On Today. Which Honestly Always Cheers Thus Ghost Up. For it Matches The Internal Photo’s of Isolation, Fulfillment, And Curiosity. Wish Me Luck!. . . . . . .
Interesting. I too am under a similar delusion but I had an out of body experience and I am on medication too. Everyone told me I need to up my meds though. However, I am quite lucid and stand firm in my spiritual awakening.
I Had Thus Moment of Strange Fascination Jus Once. Long Ago, Before My First Diagnosis. I Was, (Now Get Thus), I Was On An Alien Spaceship. No Seriously, I’m Not Jus Trying to Sound Cool Or Whatever. It Wasn’t Very Large. Almost Like a Hallway. The Walls Were a Soft Metallic Smooth Pink Colour. With Three Large Television Screens Embedded into The Walls, With Nothing But Calming Static. There Was a Rectangular Window Where I Leaned Forward And Looked Out into Outerspace. And Discovered That I Was On an Alien Planet. It Kinda Looked Like The Grande Canyon, Only it Wasn’t Dug into Any Real Depth. And at The End of The Hallway Was a Vaulted Silver Metallic Door. I Ran to The Door as it Slowly Opened And it Turned Out to Be a Large Empty Sphere. With No Gravity. I Fell into The Sphere And Began to Float. As I Slowly Floated I Began to Do to a Forward Spin, And as Soon as I Got Scared, I Was Back in My Bed. I Quickly Scanned The Room, to Make Sure it Was Real. And Realized Something Amazing Jus Happened. Sadly, Didn’t See Any Aliens. But!, I Kept My Mouth Shut. Never Told a Soul About it For 15 Years. The Band T00L Released a Song Called, ‘Rosetta Stoned’, And it Kinda Explains The Experience in an Alternate Universe. One Night I Shared Thus Experience With People on YouTube in The Comment Sections on an Upload Video of Radiohead’s Album, ‘Kid A’. After I Shared it, A Couple Days Later, The Uploader Erased The Video. And The Comment Was Gone. No Telling What Purposes it Was Erased For. Point is, My Next Lucid Step is to Actually See an Alien. Can’t Wait!. Good Luck With Your Endeavors @Ruminate_08!.
So. I Took The Trip to The Village Shop. And Grabbed The Usual. I Was Slightly Wired. Lack of Sleep. And Endless Worry of The Ghostbusters With Wishes to Pull Me From Thus Reality of Possible Future Freedom. I Returned With The Doors Locked. And No Keys. And Sat For a Few Long Hours on The Front Porch. Quietly Enjoying The Song’s From The Lushtaflurriah’s. Sipped on My Drink And Enjoyed The Leftover Vapors. I Was Later Let Back inside The Clinic House And Ended up Passing Out. No Dreams, (As Usual), But Woke up Thinking About an Angel From Long Ago. And Pray She’s Doing Okay. It Didn’t Rain By The Way @anon90843118. But it Looks Like it Might Soon, Right Now. I Might Name The Rain After You From Now On. Kinda Like, When it Rains, I’ll Say, ‘Have a Good Day Angel’!. N e Hoo. Wish Me Luck!. . . . . . .
Took Another Trip to The Village Shop. Strange Long Journey. One More Safe Potion to Sip on, For Another “Lonely Night”. Although The Flying Insects Like to Hover About The Front Porch Torch. I Tend to Watch Their Theater Antics. I Desire to Skip Tonight’s Meal. Cleanliness Fasting. While I Grasp The Few Healthy Supplements as Replacements. I Wrote Some ‘Message in a Bottle’ Notes For The One I Miss And Love. The Guardian Beyond My Wildest Dreams. Side Note:::~ I Seen a Stranger on The Housing Clinic Grounds. Doing Some Work in The Back. Said Hello, He Smiled And Returned The Introduction Favour. Found Out That He Jus Purchased a New Wagon Today. He Seemed Excited About it. And On Another Side Note:::~ @anon90843118, You’re Jus Going to Have to Face it!, I Think You Are Great!. N e Hoo. Wish Me Luck!. . . . . . .
I Have Spent Some Silent Meditative Moments Swirling Within The Ocean of Tree Languages Separated By The Thin Thread of The Breeze Tapping on The Windows. As Olde Ghosts of a Long Forgotten Dreamlike Past Sending Out Coded Vibrations into My Circuits of Energy. It is Now Time to Find Vapor, Outside Amongst The Torch And Insects Dancing With The Moon’s Comforting Embrace. N e Hoo. Wish Me Luck!. . . . . . .
… Lol… I try I do try but then who doesn’t… We all try our best with the circumstances tossed at us. I suppose…