I can remember everything vividly from the time I was 3 to probably 10. After that it’s hazy. My short term memory is absolute crap as well. But I can remember years of my childhood. What I ate for breakfast what I watched what toys I played with, what colour the carpet was… its awful though. I feel haunted by my childhood everywhere I go. A lot of the times a scent triggers it and then I’m right back as a five year old playing on a summer day in the suburbs. The only think I can compare it to is a PTSD flashback… I would also do this weird thing as a kid where I would stop and try with all my might to store memories into my brain to remember later. I remember them all, and so much more too. It’s not cool either it makes me tremendously depressed and it’s been a problem to me for years.
Just wondering if by a slim chance anyone else has experienced it? The only thing I could think it is would be some kind of memory hoarding by OCD. I really don’t know though, I’ve never talked to anyone else with this problem.
How’d you get memory hoarding by OCD?!? Repressed memories are common in a lot of people. The problem is getting the memories back and the whole history of Sigmund Freud.
@Dreamscape2 I asked my doctor about this problem one time and he mentioned that some people with OCD memory hoard. I don’t think it’s this though and the harder it is to find what’s going on and the fact that I haven’t heard anyone else experience this kinda fuels my delusions… I have another problem too with memories from past lives but that’s a whole different story.
I remember a lot of until I was about 13, then my delusions and fantasy world took over and I became very withdrawn and I don’t remember much after that until I started smoking weed. I remember everything once I started smoking weed which was around my 18th birthday. But I don’t remember much in the beginning stages of mental illness either. But it is different than yours
I sometimes remember random things from my childhood. Some are good, some are bad.
I’m not going to say I had a terrible childhood, but I don’t think I had a happy one either. It’s like you described it, a random sound or scent might trigger it.
I think it’s because I feel like many of the things I remember are either memories from happier/simpler times and I’d like to go back to that, or memories from unresolves issues or things I wish I could redo.
But in your case, the OCD memory hoarding sounds to be the most likely solution.
I experience a fleeting feeling of how blissful it was back then. might not be the right word, a feeling that the world was pleasant or happy. And its such a great feeling, but disappears very quickly, because that sense of well being doesn’t exist anymore.