I would understand you not wanting to go back because of how the last college went. But not all colleges are the same and just like meds… you have to keep trying until you find the combo that works…
From what I hear, college is a bit like that. You have to keep trying until you find the one that fits you.
I’d say one more try if you’re lucky enough to get assistance to go, then way not. This one could be the one that helps you finish your degree.
You’ll have a friend there, and you’ll have your routine back, and what if you end up liking this new one?
To me… your post feels like that first lap. You know, your standing there on the pool side, you want to swim because you know how good you feel when you swim, but your brain keeps trying to figure out just how cold the pool might be.
So it’s easy to start to talk yourself out of the swim because of the thought of cold water. But eventually you just have to jump in and do that first lap. The water is never as cold in a pool as the mind makes it seem. After the second lap, you realize “hey, this is fun after all”
I’d say, why not give it just one more change. If you still hate it, well, you met some new people and not harm no foul. But if you like it…