I see, Thank you 
You are studying full time, working part time, go to gym daily and socialize occasionally. You seem like a perfectly normal person. According to you that you have tried all other anti-psychotics and they have failed you. Despite the failure, you are still able to do all those things that normal people do, why do you need to take clozapine at all?
When I lived in a home years ago I had a friend who was on it. He had been through all types of medication and been very unwell. He was on this and living a very good life. And now he is even better. He was actually back then doing better than most of us in there. Getting out and about, enjoying movies, dancing, going to the mall. Going out for meals etc. This medication was good.
I have never taken it myself. His twin brother was also on it (and Iâm assuming still is) and also is well functioning.
I know itâs daunting. I just started a new medication also but millions have gone before you and are living very happy lives.
All the best with it.
You make a fair point @anon95278303, however I suffer terribly with paranoia delusions. While it may seem like the life I lead is ânormalâ it is very far from it. I can only go out in certain places like for example the supermarket certain times of the day. I study and work from home. And, when I do go out and have to take public transport it is not without its challnages, or even if I go to a restaurant or social venue to meet my friends. This is why I interested to try Clozapine
Thank you very much for your insight, I will also take this into consideration. Thank you 
I am on clozapine 12,5mg before sleep, I already take it from 7 years ago, I gain weight from 63 kg to 98 kg, Itâs increased my appetite very bad and in my case cause late night eat (like brain my told me to eat to get comfy so I can sleep). And my brain seems want to eat comfort food (carbs and fats), itâs really hard to dealing with even I already do a diet my body wieght now 80 kg.
The most horrible thing is if you already take it in long period, you started getting drug dependent to me almost impossible to stop it, because itâs the most sedating drug I ever take.
Donât take it if you donât really need it. If must, maybe you can alter 1 day on 1 day off and IMO donât use it for a long period.
Itâs already stated can cause metabolic syndrome and indirectly cause diabetes.
Meds didnât work for paranoia and delusions for me. That was self managed.
Have you thought of therapy?
Hello @anon84763962 I was in therapy for 1 Year, which ended only a few weeks ago, sadly
Thatâs unfortunate.
@Chrisfrans does it prevent you from working out? I tend to do a lot of cardio, will anything change or effect this?
Yes, that, it is
In my case I became lazy and stop working out for whole 6 year, well till this year if I start doing cardio I having racing though and can felt my heart pounding very fast more over itâs increase my appetite more so I am on diilema. But I try to do it hope my brain and my body will normal again, itâs pretty hard.
My suggestion is donât stop doing workouts
I manage up to an hour walking every day
Shellys where do u go for walk everydayâŚ!!!
I just go down the road opposite my flat
I try do an hour sometimes only 40 minutes
I increased after Christmas
I became like this on my last medication. I stopped working out as the medication made me restless, as a result of this I put on a lot of weight.
Now I am in a dilemma⌠to do⌠? Or not to do?
Restless, you mean restless legs?
I take 1 mg alprazolam for racing though, in special case more.
I take carvedilol or some ppl here advice using propanolol for high Beat per minute and high blood pressure.
Not restless leg, although i got that too. I mean restless in the sense of tiredness
Do you already try seroquel aka Quetiapine? Itâs the lesser evil of all antipsychotic. For first timer using antipsychotic itâs enough and the side effect is minor compare to clozapine.