How do you cope? I cant handle it anymore. As many of you know i was just released from the hosptital. I was fine when i was discharged but now im suicidal and hopeless and still feleing like im in an alternate diminsion… Maybe it was a mistake to be discharged. Idk what to do im so ■■■■■■■ fed up with this ■■■■.
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When will you get your meds? I read that you weren’t able to get them. Just try to relax and reduce stress until then.
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I just went out and got them. Going home and will be taking them when i get there
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You will surely get better on them.
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Im calling a crisis line because i just cant handle this anymore
Try supplements like NAC with cofactors, TMG or DMG etc. These will help you to uplift your mood.
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Stay safe. The meds should help. 
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What kept me going during the worst of the ■■■■ (a chronic 8.5 / 10 migraine that the hospitals couldn’t do anything about, plus schizophrenia symptoms) was morbid curiosity. Part of me would just stand back from it all and see how bad things would get. It was like a shitty horror movie that wouldn’t end.
But it did get better. However it took like 5 years of that setup.
Maybe that approach will work for you?
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I do really like that idea.
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I get myself out of a funk by doing something I love like listening to good music, or watching something funny on tv. I feel like schizophrenia thrives when it can control your mind. Or when you have no choice but to listen to the voices. (I just posted New York by Frank Sinatra. Everybody should listen to that song at least once.)
When your focused on something you love it can’t do that. I watched a couple episodes of Carol Burnett, and maybe Fred Sanford one day and it totally helped. I also meditate (there’s tons of YouTube videos on it) or read my bible. It’s helped me so much.
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I’m having those thoughts too. Hugs. I’m scared of them. If you have to go back. Call your caseworker. You need to be in a safe place.
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I feel you. I have suicidal thoughts every day. I just talk to my friends and family and hope for the best.
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Never give that option. Yes say to mind there is no such option. The thing is if you allow such thoughts to come to mind it will eventually get stronger. When such thoughts come forcefully think of some other or do some other activity and thus distract yourself from such.
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I just view my life as a sick comedy and laugh about it. Death is scary, I don’t like to think about it or ever consider approaching it. Just keep it light hearted as possible. The things I laugh off would drive a lot of people insane but I’ve developed a pretty thick skin throughout my trials with the disorder.
You gotta consider the chance things will improve. You’ll never know if you don’t hang in there. It’s worth it to get to a better future.
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Still believe what?
My pdoc said as long as i have no plans that she’s gonna let me deal on my own since i am un medicated. But i had to promise to show John any harm i did or will do to myself. I’m a shallow cutter, so once i see blood i stop, so she considers that better than the hospital.
John freaked on my earlier cause i’m starting to swell up from changes in weather, so 2 knife marks in my chest puffed up, he’s never seen them so big. My big and her boyfriend of 9 years broke up, they started dating when she was barely 20, then a a month before turning 30 he dumped her for a new 20 year old, he was 45. So mom went as Ainger women do a little psychotic, took a butcher knife and went to stab him, he pullrd 16 year old me in front of him and i got aboy 1/ 8th of an inch in me in my right breast twice. He was such a pussy he used a kid as a meat shield.
My mom lost her mind for 2 years after that, she remembers not much from then. She still doesn’t know she stabbed me. It’d break her heart to know she actually did it, i told her i was able to use my leather coat arm to take the cuts.
But i got prepgnant at 18 and married, and her boyfriend was a guy i went to school with his kidds, thrre’s 6 total with wife 1. But he was there for birth of my oldest and asked me first if he could be Grandpa to Kalick cause he was there all 12 hours, he’d stay mostly in hall, but if John or my mom had to go eat or pee he’d stay with me.
But i told him he proved to be a real grandpa, so then he asked my mom to marry him in the room with all the loveliesness of birthing still all over.
Are you ok? I have suicidal thoughts everyday. I’m scared. Maybe you need a longer stay.
I would consider myself a “shallow” cutter myself and only on my legs so I can hide them easier. I do have a big scar on my wrist though. The depth of the cut does not matter, it is unhealthy and you should not do it. Good luck to you. 
I get those if I go off my Wellbutrin (anti-depressant). Very surprised they released you while you’re still at risk. Hoping you will or have reached out to your treatment team about this.
Thanks everyone. This thread is 11 days old, im stable now. 
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