at my worst i stopped leaving home but the longer im stabilized the more i love being out and about
I only get stuck home when I am severely depressed. Otherwise i am fine leaving the house and going out to eat or watch a movie
It’s a pleasure for me to go out of my apartment to walk or to go window shopping at the shoppingmall. No problem for me.
I never had any problem going out if anything I think it helped me more than anything. I can drive and usually interact with people at my job so it keeps me going. I did have intense paranoia about my cars tires blowing up or me crashing and dying in an accident but I pushed through and it eventually subsided.
I can leave the house but prefer to stay indoors. I only go a short distance from my flat though when out by myself. This is because I have a poor sense of direction and a fear of getting lost and trapped.
I am not sure this would classify as ideas of reference. For a long time when out I’ve thought people can pick up on signs that I’m mentally ill that I give off certain vibes. I can see people laughing in my general direction and my thought will be I must be doing something to make them laugh.
It’s worse the more people are about ie the more crowded an environment is .
That’s usually how it is for me, I get going outside, get used to it, but then…one day, the thoughts…the fears…it floods back, and I don’t leave my apartment or another week or two but once…
I don’t like to leave my apartment but I do. I go to services on Sunday morning. And I go to a volunteer meeting on Wed. afternoon, and I go to volunteer work on Thurs. afternoon. And sometimes I go to medical appointments. But, if I can avoid going out I will. I was putting some thought into going on vacation and ultimately decided not to because it would involve making plans and leaving my apartment.
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