I dont feel any emotions, if anyone talks i just say a word or two, its been months when i smiled at something. The only emotion i feel is anxiety and nothing else. Even orgasms are just meh. Is it the medication? Antidepressants dont do anything, so stopped taking them. I am literally dead inside
I was before I started taking Cymbalta, but now I can feel a thing or two, even cried a little once or twice. Felt joy. Maybe not all the way but better than I was before. Pretty good.
I smiled last week. It felt like it was the first time in my life. It was about a meal on a plate. I also felt angry for the first time. I can now say “I don’t work.” and can feel it is understood.
It might be because Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday. The pain has also been worse but I have meds to relieve it. I feel there might be some hope for some sort of fulfillment, now.
I feel emotions but they are normally bad ones. I feel like I am trying to get out of feeling awful all day. Wish I could go back to feeling happy all day long.
No. I used to be on higher doses of meds. I felt very numb and zombielike. I thought my emotions would never come back. Now i lowered the dose of meds (in cooperation with my mh team) i think i get more and more emotions back, though im still slightly blunted compared to my past. But even with the slight blunting im at times more emotional than average i think. Maybe too much so.
If anything - i can get too emotional over stuff, that people would wonder why im laughing or crying. Music brings it out in me alot. You can always tell what mood im in by my Spotify Playlist.