Haha…well I think you have a point
I have learned to just endure pain. I went for over a year without medication, it was hell but it made me come out stronger, friggin powerlifting and a straight A student. I still feel pain but I dont suffer as much. Its hard to describe. I sort of live off of pain, when something is painful, it must be making me stronger, literally with the weightlifting and also emotionally with the bad days, life events, people who were friends hating me, stuff like that is just to be learned from. Most times, I conclude that the person who hates me is insane, and other people agree when I tell them the story. Like when I showed my friend a text conversation between me and a girl I was seeing, he was like “Holy ■■■■, she is the craziest ***** I have ever heard of, just quit talking to her and forget her.” And I did. It wasnt painful, it was just like “oh, you’re insane, more so than I am. Bye.” I didnt literally say that, but that was the gist of how I cut it off with her. That’s just an example. Very long and boring, somewhat irrelevant example because I truly didnt care.
But dude, you have to find reasons to live. I live to beat this illness. Im not dying without having lived. This illness isnt going to take away a normal life from me or waste my potential. Not without a fight its not.