I feel more and more hopeless everyday. My mind is loud, the meds cause me pain and I don’t even think they do anything. Everyone’s scared of me. None of my “friends” give a ■■■■ about me. I’m not alright with this anymore. Every thought is dark and well I just wish I wasn’t here anymore. I was born dead and can’t stop wishing they didn’t bring me back. Idk what to do
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Hmm. . .
You May Want To Speak With Your Care Team.
And See If Your Doctor Can Find The Right Medications For You.
Your Therapist May Also Ease The Psychological Trauma Of The Hurting.
Good Luck!.
And May Peace Be With You. . .
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The first port of call is your psychiatrist. You have to let them know what’s going on. Tell them what you’ve told us.
I understand the feeling of hopelessness though. I feel that way every so often but you have to keep fighting the disease in any way you can. Don’t let it win.
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Idk why I posted this I’m not gonna do anything productive about it… I just can’t live like this. I don’t sleep or eat or do anything it’s a meaningless existence…
Sorry that you are having a hard time @Thaze . I hope this passes. Do you think maybe you should call a helpline?
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It’s very rare I’m able to not feel like this. I tried to hide it, even on here but it’s breaking my ■■■■■■■ brain
You’ve definitely got to talk to your psychiatrist. You deserve a better quality of life.
No, I’ll just end up locked up again
But there isn’t one. No meds work or they make me violently ill. A ssri almost killed me 2 days of taking it.
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And I’m sorry for being so dark… it’s just how I really feel. And the fact that everyone on here feels similar is just awfull. Idk… sorry
I’ve forgotten. What’s your current med situation? What antipsychotic are you on ,if any.
I get an injection of abilify it’s the only thing that didn’t immediately make me sick or just worsen hallucinations and suicidal thought. Idk what label to throw on it I’ve been treated and diagnosed in 3 states and they all said different things. But I think I’m sza, I get very intense visual hallucinations along with voices delusion false memory’s amnesia adhd ptsd. There’s more but I can’t even think of all the ■■■■ they said
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I was on other apps with abilify but I refused to take them after a month
You should definitely talk to your psychiatrist. It sounds like you need a PRN (something to take for emergencies) at the very least.
I’m sorry you’re suffering.
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What happened? Would like to share?
What’s a prn? And thank you for the concern
My mom woke up in a pool of blood. The amount of blood she lost almost killed her, they had to do an emergency c section and well I was dead
Also a good chance of why my brain is so fukd up…
A prn is a drug you take as needed. A lot of us have them. I don’t anymore due to trying to OD on mine. Stupid move.
You really need to reach out to your pdoc. You can’t get better without making steps to do so. With this disease it’s a matter of trying lots of meds, combined meds, and therapy.
I know you don’t want to go back to the hospital. None of us do. But there they can stabilize you, try different meds and adjust right away. All while keeping you safe in case of sudden psychosis.
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Yes, like @anon4362788 said, a PRN is just any med they can prescribe for emergencies to get you over rough patches.