Lost about 40lbs on a smaller frame within the span of a few months, and just progressively deteriorated physically and mentally until I agreed to go to the hospital— although I felt on top of the world for a while there.
Subsequent episodes weren’t so great. Just 800-mile stares and internalized panic and distress from voices and visions.
I heard one guy talk about “not being on the beam, and not knowing you’re not on the beam, because you’re not on the beam”. There were times when I thought I was on the beam and all these well meaning people were trying to push me off.
If you see yourself as mentally well that is very good. But it is sad if people who care about you or who you care about see you as mentally unwell, ask what about yourself makes them think so. Maybe it just a sometimes a simple habit you can change.