I decided to open up to her on what i know are delusions and she threatened to call the cops on me if i dont go to the hospital. Im not suicidal or homicidal. I told her i left a message for my dr on friday. If im not suicidal why cant i just try to wait until my dr calls? I know im pretty severe but after last time i was suicidal i just knew i didnt want to kill myself. Like my whole outlook on life is changed. I look forward to the future and i know this is temporary hell.
I feel like i dont have anyone to talk to about my delusions and hallucinations now
Im sick of being in the hospital the ones here suck and dont really help me that much. Im tired of getting behind on homework iver it. I have gone every 4 months for the past year or so and now is time. Cant i just try to keep myself safe for once?
Oh yeah its my life since getting schizoaffective in 2014. I went maybe a year once without going but i should have gone several times. Im a rapid cycler i think i have schizoaffective bipolar type ocd cptsd and autism and gender dysphoria.
Ive been on a lotof meds but right now im on latuda. I havent been able to take it in a couple days but im going to try today
I would drop her like a hot potato. As bad as my ex-husband was, he would never threaten to hospitalize me just because I had weird thoughts. I rarely shared them with him, but if I did, he would just ask if I was taking my medication. That’s it. He never made me take my meds either. That motivated me to take them on my own.
Im not thinking about leaving her over this but i agree that she shouldnt be trying to commit me just because im delusional especially because i have high insight. Makes me feel like i cant trust her. If shes just going to call the cops and disriptmy daily routines. I dont think she realizes how much i would flip out if my routine was disrupted rn. Shes never seen me this bad. Im really afraid of the cops showing up and something bad happening because i will not want to go
