I wish my memory was in my head and not held in external books. Most of my memory is stored outside my head.
Of all the things this illness has damaged the most, I really am beginning to think my memory has taken one of the worst hits. When I want to bring up something here, I have to grab my journals and jog my memory.
Sometimes I think if I ever lost my journals, my past would be gone and I’d have no real memory about my past. My sis has been trying to make me recall things in my life without immediately reaching for the journals. Sometimes I can almost do it. Usually the journals will help jog a memory and some details will start to come up.
Maybe that is why I have a two window delay on my emotional reactions… I have no strong memory of things.
Can memory be built up and strengthened, or once it’s gone it’s gone?
What do you think?