John (if you don’t know already John is my almost boyfriend) is leaving in 5 months for Colorado… my heart is shattered… I feel so stupid… I shouldn’t have ever gotten my hopes up…

Sorry to hear about this. It’s not something I think we should say we shouldn’t ever get our hopes up for. A lot of us go through something like this.
Maybe something better will come along? Who knows.
Don’t feel stupid though…

Also, when you say almost boyfriend, I’m not sure what you mean? Maybe there’s a still a chance for something?
He said we’d be together after his therapy was over so we we’re official but we were like going on dates, hanging out, falling asleep in each other’s arms… it was fullish… there is no hope now…
I’m sorry. That really sucks. You are still an awesome person who deserves love.
John was it… I can’t see myself with anyone else… I’m done trying for love.
It’s sometimes good to be alone. It teaches you inner peace and how to love yourself and stuff. There is no rule saying you must look for a new boyfriend. Do you have people in your life that you can lean on for support right now? Breakups are tough, so don’t be afraid to ask for help getting through it.
Bad thing is we were never together so I can’t even call it a break up… I have mom and step dad… that’s it.
It’s still a breakup if your heart got broken. You had expectations and hopes, and now they’re gone.
What makes it worse is he still expects me to go on a getaway with him…
You don’t want to go anymore? I understand that. It could be very emotional and dramatic.
Why would I want to go still? All I wanna do when I even think of him is curl up in a ball and cry…
It makes sense. I don’t think I would go either.
Take plenty of time to just let yourself be sad about it. Eat ice cream and watch terrible movies, or whatever you do for comfort. Be gentle with yourself for a while.
I’m sorry Twialine I’ve had my heart broken too. But I don’t think you should give up on love. Some love is better than no love.
I am also a person who becomes quite attached and fixated on one person at a time. I have had serveral gf with whom I was with for usually more than a year up to several years and most of the time it was circumstances or just it was not going anywhere anymore. Like the next step would be marriage and we were not ready. So, everytime I had a heartbreak but I did recover and eventually find someone new who was special to me. So monogamy yes, romance, yes passion, yes, but if it doesnt work out, all you have to wait is until you meet someone new…Sometimes I believe my past gf all prepared me for my current relationship…so it was not in vain…hang on twialine. you will meet someone new. one door closes another opens, eventually…
Gee, I wish I had some wise words. I can only say that I am sure that, over time, you will heal. I have been sad about relationships too and. over time, it went to it’s rightful place in my brain which is a ‘past pain’ that I am over. The reality is that you are in the mist of it right now, though, and for that I am sorry. We are here for you.