Still on haldol, still working wonders on my brain.
Been having trouble with random panic attacks.
There’s a lot thats happened in the past two years that have traumatized me.
I saw a roommate (one of three marines) attack and strangle my other roommate.
For a long time I just grabbed my head and worried with the image in my mind.
Now it doesn’t get to me as much, a little over a year has passed.
Still wild that everyone survived and the police did nothing.
We kicked him out that week so things got better fast, but it ■■■■■■ me up lol.
Besides my rapist from when I was 14 started following me on instagram.
Who knows how much of my profile he saw before I managed to block him?
I’ve brought that up in therapy at least, for the first time ever. Never wanted to talk about it.
Now I’m just frustrated. It’s been a decade! GO ON!
Lol so yeah anxiety is a ■■■■■ thats my main issue.
but everything else is going well. Still with my boyfriend.
Still writing and succeeding at it. Not that anyone would be able to tell from a post like this
Sounds like some decent progress. It’s hard to let go of the shadows of your past but work with your therapist and move forward how you can. Hope the next phase of your life is smooth sailing!
Yeah its kind of a long story. I didn’t find out what actually happened until a year later. (my poor bb life at the time couldnt handle alcohol so i was blacking in and out the whole time) I remembered bits and pieces that confirmed it, but i blocked out those memories for a long time.
Good news is it’s tearing him up inside with guilt. I got lucky with that lol
