I believe I’ve been being stalked on the internet and in the neighborhoods where I live since my first break from reality. I thought I was being bullied because I was ugly and weird and thought someone put cameras in my parents home to watch me at home. I was distressed because I was embarrassed and ashamed because I believed I was being accused of being a stalker, because the person I believe I lived near was avoiding me and treating me like I was scary. I panicked and went off on him because I thought he lived in my neighborhood because everywhere I looked I saw his last name and my acquaintances were treating me more or less like I was terrorizing them or unwanted. My family became mean and relentless when I was recovering and I developed some nasty habits to cope, I started drinking and stealing their weed and taking diet supplement because I thought they were watching me shower etc. I hid at home for several years and avoided people because I didn’t understand why that happened to me. I was watching people react to me out outdoors and hearing strangers out in public talking about me and at me to cause me distress. I began to believe it was a set up and I was lured into psychosis and people were putting ideas in my head to cause me distress deliberately. I thought the only way to recover and lead a normal life like I wanted I had to stop feeling emotions because they were making me feel inhuman and in despair all the time. The thoughts about being stalked and having ideas put in my head made me believe I was a test subject and my mind was being destroyed deliberately to see what kind of damage it would do and they were going to take my brain when I died which I believed early on and it made me feel bitter.
I was like that before I got diagnosed and got put on meds. Are you on meds now?
People can do that
It can cause major distress
Even more symptoms
I hope you can try to put it out of your mind