Belief In God, or lack of

Do you believe in god? If so, how do you define him/her/it/ or any scientific energy?

I used to be a hardcore Christian. Now I think I’m more of a deist. Since I’ve been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia I’ve grown very lonely, angry and isolated. I’m not sure if god really exists sometimes. I really wish I could believe god loves me.

For the past seven years I’ve struggled with suicide attempts, alcohol addiction, and hospitalizations.

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Sorry for your troubles.


Thank you kindly. I’m feeling ok, just needed to vent.

I believe enough in what I believe in.

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I have hope there is a loving God . I don’t always believe it honestly… but I would not apologize to an entity that would judge against my skepticism in a world of lies

I would offer anything to a loving God tho

Used to be a Christian too before I got psychosis. After that it became impossible to believe in it. I’ve tried I don’t even know how anymore.

I personally believe in an intelligent design as many scientists are agreeing to the belief in an intelligence behind all creation. Just look at how intelligent we are at designing new things that we created just out of the raw materials we have already on the planet and of course all the science we discover to be able to do this. So, I believe that all things came from God, so then all things are God and that is how the God of the Bible is described as being Omnipresent, Omniscient and Omnipotent.

Those Dragonflies flying around are really Gods most intelligent drones.

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Sorry to hear this. In a way - I can relate. Did you have any religious delusions? I had a lot of them and part of the reason I’m cautious.

Oh yeah I had serious religious delusions just way outta control. I would morph from jesus taking over my body and becoming Jesus back to myself and actually believe it was a new gift that God told me they brought in called “the gift of transferance”

I wasn’t really following christianity at all for a long time. Then I got really messed up on drugs and close to death one night had a meltdown. 3 months later went to a charismatic church camp to be a councilor kinda like my own form of rehab… yeah I was developing psychosis before that even before the drug use.

So that’s how religion got tied into my psychosis.

And whole wack of other nonsense.

I wonder why so many of us with sz get such religious delusions?

I think it seems to happen due to where your primary core belief was at the time you developed psychosis. Just my thoughts on it.

If your bored I wrote one of my episodes down a while back. It’s at the top. I couldn’t make it up if I tried…

I had religious delusions when I was ill. I was supposed to help Jesus return to Earth after the post rapture battle between Good and evil. I am still a strong christian.

Thanks for sharing your episode.

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Good on you for remaining strong.

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I’m a science person. But during my psychosis I became really religious, all religions actually. That passed, I’m still a science person. Maybe a bit more inclined to the spiritual side of life, but without the searches on the subject. I just like the unknown, we don’t know so there’s no answer to the question of wether there is or isn’t a god.

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thats really interesting @Minnii , did you ever have previous knowledge of religions? or just became hyper interrested in all religions?

I became gradually interested, didn’t have a lot of knowledge previously.

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mine amped up at a church camp although stuff was happening before it, it just contributed to me becoming hyperreligious. they would ask people to close there eyes and see if god would tell them anything.
of course i had the most detailed of closed eye visual hallucinations and people thought i was gifted… yeah… so that definitely accelerated things , it was like a perfect storm for enabling and affirming.

my religious delusions came from hearing voices, i blamed the voices on supernatrul entiteds, it was mental torture , i still haven’t got over it