Damn, that’s harsh. People have no idea the things that can happen.
In the course that I’m taking it’s all about taoism and connection to the source of life, in a very spiritual way some classes. I don’t like it very much, but the rest is really scientific so there’s balance.
Some people want to see things, lol it’s beyond my comprehension.
If so, how do you define him/her/it/ or any scientific energy?
[/quote]1. I believe there is a God.
That’s the thing - I don’t define God anymore. Rather than try to create a paradigm in which I feel comfortable, I’ll let God do the talking or revealing. I don’t want to create inaccurate or false beliefs about God, so I simply remain silent on the matter.
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I used to be a hardcore Christian.
[/quote]Same here. I even started learning Hebrew & Greek to try and perfect my understanding of the Bible, but after much prayer & consideration I felt “informed” that I no longer had to study the Bible - that I had graduated from that experience and get to move on to a more subdued approach to spirituality & understanding.
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For the past seven years I’ve struggled with suicide attempts, alcohol addiction, and hospitalizations.
[/quote]I was hospitalized multiple times for NO good reason. In fact, not a single hospitalization should have even occurred - but because my antipsychotic drugs were causing tourettes like symptoms, I randomly would have police called on me & escorting me out. Shouting or yelling is a crime apparently.
I have no problems with suicidal idealation, though, but Haldol did cause some when I was on that. Also haven’t had any alcohol problems. The stuff reeks and tastes terrible, in my opinion.
I believe in God but don’t necessarily believe in heaven. Heaven is a place on earth. Couldn’t imagine a place better than this. I feel God has a plan but not sure what… I try not to think about it…but the other day I said to my mom “do you like rush”…she says she doesn’t really know them…so I go to play Tom Sawyer and as I’m searching it 1/500 chance it comes on. These ■■■■ happens a lot. I have so many God winks just to remind me he’s real. Not sure gods purpose but I’m a big believer.
I have recently been learning the Hebrew language to study the Bible in its original chosen language by G-d. I was watching a video of a Rabbi talking about the creation and the alephbet or hebrew alphabet and he stated that when G-d first gave the spark of life to humans that’s when we learned to talk and communicate. Talking is a divine gift from the Lord.
Yeah I’m just not sure I’d want an afterlife. Eternal rest would be nice
But I wanna live this life first.
Maybe there is an after life :\
but right now it doesnt sound that appealing, I just couldnt imagine a place above this one.
Maybe reincarnation would be cool…if life was less of a pain and a struggle. But I believe Earth to be the optimal place to live, especially in the times we’re living in. We’re in such an interesting times, for me to be born now and not any other time in history, as a human, seems strange to me.
I used to have the chosen one delusion, a God delusion. I haven’t gone back on that belief in God at all, but rather God making me struggle. But for what? I dunno yet.
I could envision myself living in a cabin in the woods. Jimi Hendrix and Janis Joplin would be my neighbors. Doing nothing all day except chatting with them and getting drunk. Waking up with no hangover. That’s my idea of heaven. No more meds or SZ. That’s my idea of “paradise”. i could do that eternally. Who knows, maybe Joplin and Hendrix personality sucks too…I don’t think so. Nah hendrix was a nice guy, we’d get along. But most people suck. i don’t like people besides my neighbor and my family.
Yeahhh!!! I wish I could smoke weed the way I did when I first started…before the paranoia and anxiety came. Celebrities used to be such beautiful people, what happened?
I’m also a big fan of Tupac personally. All the good ones had to die so young.
i said to my dad one time, if anyone is in hell suffering for all entirnaty i don’t want to go to heaven, why create the universe if anyone has to suffer in hell ‘‘forever’’
Nas, J Dilla, Tupac are my 3 fav…biggie too but I don’t know how well we’d get along…I like eminem’s music but don’t like how he’s changed over the years.
I think J Dilla would be a cooool cat to chill with.
These guys all faced a ton of adversity. I think Hendrix is one of the most likeable person in history just because how humble he was and all he faced. And marley too.
to me my psychosis trips were hell, it was the very taste of hell lasting up to 6 weeks. i was mental crippled. i wouldnt wish it on any one or any thing that ever excisted