I have just been in a meeting with my pdoc and mental health social worker and they said because I refused to have my depot last march they are renewing my cto because Of noncompliance. This is the 5th year I’ve been on a cto, I told them honestly if they where to take me off the cto I would not have the depot because there is nothing wrong with me, pdoc said that worries them because I become very unwell and I stabbed myself trying to get a microchip out my armpit. Do you think 5 years on a cto is a long time and are you on one?
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It sounds like you have lack of insight. They’re doing the right thing. Also you did the right thing by being honest with them. 
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5 years is a long time. And such a long extension-- a whole year at a time. Around here (Oregon) they’re usually extended for 3 to 6 months at a time, and then you get a hearing to try to get off of it.
And I can see they used everything you said to them (about stabbing yourself) to help make their decision to extend it.
I was on one because I tried to hang myself, and because i told them I was thinking about trying it again, they said i was a danger to myself. I made the mistake of telling them that I had found more fool-proof ways of doing it, that I had been looking stuff up on the internet, etc., and they wrote down what I said and then read it back to the judge, and he put me on 6 months, then they renewed it for another 6 months after that.
Off topic, but I hope you’re staying safe and inside with AC To avoid the fires and air quality dangers.
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That’s pretty heavy. I am not on a CTO. We don’t really have them in Ireland. But I am doing very well now. Undeniably I was quite ill and was a classic schizophrenic. Whether that is still the case I don’t know. But I do take 10mg of Abilify. I was on a depot but it was a little inconvenient so we changed it and I have been well behaved so there was no problem.
The pdoc wants me to go on 3 monthly Invega Sustenna injections which I don’t want but because I’m on a community treatment order I have no say in it. Basically being on a CTO is like being on police bail, If I step one foot out of place I’m recalled back to hospital (instead of jail) I sometimes wonder if I’d be better off in prison because I’ve heard they can’t farce you to have medication?
Prison is a bad place to be psychotic.
I don’t know what the rules are where you are, but recently there was news here about an sz man who died in jail because he was left imobile in restraints for a few days - naked and soiling himself. Barbaric. And they could have medicated him because there was a court order, but they didn’t.
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hi,
poor ■■■■■■■…
cto is a nasty thing…
as far as i am concerned it is against human rights…
hang in there… 
I tried to take a pacemaker out of my left shoulder once. Didn’t work out so well. That’s the kind of thing I do when I go off meds and why I’m so careful to not go off them again. Sounds to me like your treatment team is doing right by you. I’m not on a CTO because I’m very aware that I’m ill and I need to take my meds to keep from becoming more ill.
Good luck with eventually finding your way off the CTO.
I think because I severely harmed myself trying to cut the microchip out I’m classed as high risk and that makes people especially doctors look and treat me different, they look at me as a severe case.
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I’m on an ato. Alternative treatment order. I’m forced to get the shot too. I’ve been on it for about 5 years too. I ask them when there going to take me off it but they say not yet.
i hear ya…
that kinda ■■■■ sucks…
i delusionally believed that i had chips in me once but was too terrified to make a sound…
You are a severe case. So was I when I mutilated myself. Accept the treatment, do the therapy, and you’ll get well enough to be let off the treatment order.