Feeling down. I was supposed to spend the day over at my nephews mother-in-laws house. Well, it didn’t work out so I stayed home at my Residential Treatment Home. It wasn’t a good day but it wasn’t a bad day. I got out of the house anyway. Then I was feeling very depressed because I thought everybody hated me. I felt black and empty inside, really bad. I thought my roommate hated me for sure but I looked at him and he seemed really friendly towards me and we talked for a bit. I hope everybody doesn’t hate me, I can’t tell.
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They don’t. It’s the disease talking. (Time to use you CBT skills?)
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Well, we on this site don’t hate you. I like you. You may feel as if there is something to blame yourself about, but you should know that you have done the best that anyone in your lot in life could, and that you still do every day.
Like I’ve said before, you’re a fighter. Well I can say that because haha I was one literally in my teens. You’ve got the guts.
Know that you are a good person. A person who is pitch black on the inside doesn’t complian that they are pitch black on the inside.
I would says you’re feeling blue.
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it is just your sz talking …the feeling of being persecuted.
try to think logically…write it down.
- your a good bloke
- you think of others feelings, you are caring, thoughtful
- you are intelligent
sometimes it is real but in this instance due to your stress over your mother…i think this is just a feeling… which is not founded…in any reality.
remember to hold on to all those good memories of your mother…and father…
know someone cares
take care
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No one hates you. I’m sorry your day didn’t work out, and it’s easy to feel forgotten. But you have a good family who still has your back. Nothing seems to work out as planned on holidays.
You have a lot of people who look up to you on this site… I’m one of them
Hope tomorrow goes better.
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Thanks a lot @mortimermouse, @notmoses @SurprisedJ and of course the reliable Mr. @darksith who’s words always cheer me up. I hope all your Thanksgivings went OK .
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Wait, wait, I have something to say too!
…listen to @darksith’s words of love and wisdom.
That’s all. 
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I’m sure that’s not true, that everybody hates you. My son is 28 and paranoid sz and good on his meds, but something he said the other day kind of surprised me. He said something like he had talked to some people and they were nice to him, so I guess it’s not unusual to feel like you do from time to time, even on meds.
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I don’t hate you, you seem nice. And that feeling happens to me a lot too where i feel that everyone just hates me and really doesn’t want me around. I try to medidate on it or even just straight up ask the person if i feel comfortable enough. Though there are always those people that i never feel comfortable around talking to on a deeper level about what they think about me.
Thanks for the input @Sarad, @Kazuma, and @daquilamarguerite. It helped. Really.
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I always felt this way for a long time myself being Hated by everyone and that everyone in the world was out to get me and realized now that’s not true even though It seems I have many enemies and but a few friends at times and I do feel this way still even though I am on meds but don’t feel as if everyone is out to get me like before I used to panic and look over my shoulder all the time to see who was watching me and persecuting me. I used to think someone was using Black Magic against me this was actually true in my past because of things I have seen and witnessed first hand but I dabbled in the Occult in my past and maybe it backfired and went to hell and came back to me they say whatever you send out good or bad comes back to the Sender even worse than when first sent out. I have had karma pay me a visit more than several times and I have had nothing but years of bad luck and everything go wrong for me for the longest time but I feel I am out of this mess now and I can finally live my life but rest assure its most likely your illness having you believe everyone hates you when its most likely not true @77nick77
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Thanks for your time.@Melina2
I am sorry you had a bad day @77nick77 perhaps you could cheer yourself up with a coke at the drive through? I am praying for you that your pain will ease up. I’m sure no one hates you. I hope you tell your pdoc these things to see if maybe your meds need to be adjusted? Anyways, I love you.
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Thanks for the concern Jukebox.
That’s all it was, just a bad day. I am taking it one day at a time.
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I like you @77nick77!
You’re funny, kind, and a bit quirky (good quirky that is).
Hope you feel better…
(((((Hugs)))) for you.
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you are very welcome
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When you’re depressed you do things like that to yourself. I think it is because you need to have a certain view of the world. Hopefully, this is just temporary for you. With me, the weather is making me depressed. It is cold and rainy, bleak and drab. Very unpleasant weather.
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Thanks Csummers.
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I often get a cold chill in my chest and wonder what wrong I’ve done… I relate to the dark feelings. Hugs