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I feel like I’ve somehow convinced my treatment team I’m psychotic and that I’m a fake. I don’t have psychosis I just have ptsd. I’m really upset about this. I’m going to write a letter to pdoc tomorrow and say that I am a fraud.
But I still believe in all those things just i don’t feel unwell.
Anything I say won’t change the thing in your mind about whether your psychotic or not.
I’ve been there. A lot of people have been there. Please. Listen to your treatment team and relax a bit! It’ll all sort itself out!
When I was delusional I totally believed in the weird ideas about life that I was coming up with. I needed anti-psychotics then, but all I could think of was how to get rid of the imagined chip in my brain. That was a hard delusion to shake off.
Thanks @naturallycured and @rogueone . Im just having a bad night. I talked to pdoc today and she was nice but I feel this guilty feeling. I shouldn’t be in hospital as there’s nothing wrong with me I just have ptsd.I am having a sort of nervous breakdown and that’s why I accepted to be in hospital 
I’m crying my eyes out right now I feel like I’m liVing in hell.
I don’t think people who are mentally ill are likely to be fake. They’re too busy fighting their own demons to be dreaming up more problems for themselves.
@princess I don’t want to be cruel when saying this, so know that my intentions are good.
The fact that you think nothing is wrong with you is exactly why you should be in the hospital and allow the treatment team to take care of you.
You’ve posted a lot here about your belief that your hands aren’t yours, and that the police are surveillancing you.
Those are called delusions and are part of psychosis, but it can be hard to see until the medicines have been in effect for a while. I really do hope for you that you stop resisting the help you’re so lucky to get, and decide to give it a try. Not a day’s try, not a week’s try, we’re talking months here. A REAL try.
And for the record, I definitely don’t think you are fake, which is why it saddns me so much that you refuse to get help or try to be logical about the whole thing.
(though in the beginning I did suspect you of being an internet troll)
I wish you a good recovery hugs
Thanks @Berru maybe I am a troll I’ve just got better at it?
princess,
Maybe you’re just feeling this way because you feel better right now. Or perhaps you’re delusional?
If you’re really not psychotic, then you know you’re not, and if you are, you may or may not know it. I can’t tell you you are or aren’t because I’m not in your head.
I’m sorry you’re feeling this way.
No, you’re absolutely not a fake.
Some of the things you have been doing to yourself could have had terrible consequences if medical and mental health professionals hadn’t intervened. You could have ended up with sepsis or worse.
When you are in denial it can be easy to feel like a fraud or a fake.
And you are definitely not a troll here. You come here for advice and support and that is the purpose of this website!
I hope things get better for you soon 
I don’t think you’re a fake either. It is natural to be utterly convinced of delusional thoughts when psychotic.
I dont think your fake because you sound about where i am at with trying to get treatment. I just am not very good at all at explaining things like symptoms or what i feel sometimes. your post sounds the way i do (confused and uncertain) about how to proceed.
you need to stay in the hospital until you realize that your hands are your owns…can’t have you leaving the hospital and cutting your hands off…the hospital is a good thing for you…try to enjoy the time in there instead of dreading it…don’t you have any family or friends you can talk to?
I think you’re gonna get better really soon
I think you’re very ill. I just wish that YOU realized just how ill you are.
I never seen so many people agree on the same thing. It’s a unanimous decision lol
I don’t have friends and my family are too dysfunctionall. For example myou mumbrella thinks I am possessed. I am utilizing hospital but not in the way they think I need to for psycosis.
Well for one thing, I can tell you, you are NOT possessed. You are a human being.
Thanks @anon1571434. I know I’m not possessed it’s just my mother being obsessively Christian.
Not that I have anything against religion just don’t like it being forced on me
You’re living in my world sister