I dont believe im physcotic i feel like a fake. I dont know why the hospital want to give me aps because i dont have a physcotic disorder. Everything that ive disscussed on this forum has been what ive been experiencing and i can relate to you guys a lot. But even one of the forum members called me out to be a fake so i dont know. Im not trying to decieve anyone i swear before god. I just feel so confused. If i had psycosis then the ap would make me believe my hand is mine but i know nothing will change that.
I believe that you feel the things you say you feel. I don’t think they’re happening in reality; that is, I think your hands are yours. But, either way, I hope things work out for you.
Whatever your label is, you have serious problems that need addressing. Your doctors have to get on the ball and help you. A lot of what you’ve written seems to prove that something is drastically wrong with you. It’s not a moral failing and it’s not your fault and it doesn’t make you a bad person (you seem quite respectful and nice actually)
No matter how many moments you have where it seems nothing is wrong, your history speaks for itself and I don’t think because you feel clear-headed and insightful some days that your problems are going to magically disappear like nothing ever happened. But I understand, I used to doubt my illness too on my good days.
But they don’t stick people in psyche wards because the person is well-adjusted and happy and enjoying their life. They usually put people in psyche wards because they have serious problems.
Thank you @rogueone i just feel like theres nothing wrong with me and then being accused by a member on the forum made me feel upset and feel that way. I guess im just really sensitive at the moment.
it’s a strange journey for sure but most of us have been there. Don’t worry about others. You need to worry about yourself and that means being open to treatment. Hang in there. No self harm…behave yourself!
I’ve read a few of your posts, and I never felt any indication that you were faking your illness. What would be the point of doing that? To get psychotropic drugs? Get real. I don’t know why anyone would fake being sz. As for the psychosis - you’re badly delusional about a few things. I don’t want to sound to harsh or confrontational, but some of your thought patterns seem to me to be out of touch with reality.
Thanks for honesty. I believe the same why would someone one want to fake any illness really. Just to be restrained and put on aps that make you fat and tired. In all honesty i still have doubts that ive ever had physcosis but i am distressed by the things i have put on other posts so yeah i dunno. Maybe i shpuld trust the docotor but at the same time i need to trust my heart which tells me that im not unwell. Im confused
Be assertive with you doctor. You’re on the receiving end of this treatment after all. I know how it feels to be in your situation. Most of the time when I was committed it felt to me like I was the reasonable one, and everyone else was behaving irrationally. When you feel like that, and some authority figure starts laying down rules and giving you treatment you might not like, you can react strongly against it. You can get pissed off about it. Try not to do that. Your doctor is a trained professional.
I feel like I’m fake too - especially when I’m doing well like now. I feel like I never had sz and don’t need my pills. But then a visit to the pdoc and all is reassured again. At moment I’m confused too. So you’re not alone.
@princess. No one is questioning whether you’re faking a mental illness. Based on your posts, clearly you are currently suffering from significant symptoms to the point of being a danger to yourself.
Just do your best following the advise of your treatment team until you find a medication regimen that works for you.
Incidentally, there’s a news magazine in the US called 20/20 and yesterday night’s 20/20 program was about a man who had a hand transplant. The incisions and scars were gruesome and disfiguring. The reason I mention this is that there would be no way that someone could have removed your hands without leaving obvious and unmistakable evidence. Hopefully this helps you understand that your belief about someone removing your hands is delusional thinking.
Thanks @Moonbeam. Its not just that i think others think im faking its that i feel like i am faking but i am so distressed by these things surely i cant be.
