Planning to run away from hospital. The only thing is i feel bad about doing that to the nurse. But today ive woken up with a strong drive to remove the hands i hate them so much i cant even cry i feel so numb and emotionless but at the same time heartache.
Don’t run away from the hospital. There’s a lot of people trying to help you.
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I know but the hands are unbareable
That’s one of the things they’ll help you with. Please trust them.
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Its like it consumes me. I just dont see why we cant go to the police station demand my hands backand demand they stop surveillancing me, inserting false memories, violent thoughts and images and voices. Then ill feel a lot better.
I just want my hands back 
Because none of it is real. It’s just your mind playing tricks on you. It can seem very real, but it’s not.
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I have to go to sleep now. Talk to you soon.
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I’m surprised they let you have internet access at hospital. That is normal?
Yip its good distraction
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How do you know that they are doing these things and how are they doing it? 
You mean the police?
It’s quite unusual to be allowed personal electronics and internet access in a behavioral health hospital. I’m a little surprised about this too @princess especially if you’re under the constant supervision of a nurse. 
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The hands on your body are your real hands princess. Hands are a wonderful gift. Don’t run away. Just get better and realize your hands are fine.
Please don’t run from the hospital. You will soon see that you are going to be ok. Just let the staff do their thing.
Aye are you ok now? I know it’s hard man me to. I can swear on anything people can hear me think and talk to myself. And feel me. I feel naked to and I feel like everyone is watching and judging me throwing jabs at me. Just try to hang in there man there’s nothing more we can do but let them try to help you please. We love you man. Because you’re a human being and we have problems to and wouldn’t want that to be on anyone.
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