Negatives have me feeling worthless and useless, which turned into sucidal thoughts and urges. My thoughts are so disorganised I’m having trouble leaving the house and I’m just so frustrated with myself. I can’t make it through the day without my mom checking in on me to make sure I’m still eating. I went to the grocery store twice and didn’t buy anything. I just feel helplessand hopeless. Things are quiet today, voices wise. It’s just me feeling broken.
I’m gonna be okay for now, but in the morning I’m gonna go to the hospital (the good one that understands psychosis and has my dx on file, not the bad one that thinks I’m lying for attention + gave me lice).
Why would your insurance be good tomorrow and not tonight?
Personally I don’t go to the hospital when I am suicidal or I would be hospitalized a lot. But I know I won’t do it again and I can count on Lunesta knocking me out at night.
I don’t know if this is the case for this poster, but if you check in at 11:55pm you may be charged for 1 day at the hospital for that 5 minutes, and then for the following day as well.
Are you in Canada? In Canada our socialised medicine is tied to location. If I’m here using this address I can only use this hospital. Which is a ridiculous hospital.
My dad’s coming to get me in 4.5 hours. I’m keeping myself Seroquel sedated until then. Gonna walk to Macs for some milk. Keep myself busy and out of the house. I own a lot of razor blades. I thought I had hidden a box cutter in the bathroom but it’s not there. I might have been hallucinating
But the awful terrible no good hospital here took me off my Zoloft cause they think I’m faking for attention.