I know I’m to some extent, I feel like these voices are just spirits guiding me, and the actions I commit now will change the future in the sense if anything goes wrong I will be saved in a parallel dimension. Sometimes I even feel like I’m immortal or a deity, Anyway I want to know if any one ever has been through this? What has helped you accept the disease?
Hi there🙂
It took me about 20 years to accept my diagnosis and to actually believe I have schizophrenia.
I always believed the voices, delusions etc were real.
Just two years ago I had delusions and now that I look back at it I see clearly it was delusions and far from reality but at the time it seemed real.
I never told anyone about these delusions not even this forum or my x boyfriend.
Maybe it will come with time for you aswell.
I feel so happy to be so stable and symptom free right now and to have accepted my diagnosis feels good too because I see clearly now that I have schizophrenia and that I had all these schizophrenia symptoms.
20 years is a long time…
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Wow, that is a huge achievement regardless of the time it took.
I’m currently going through that but with my voices
I hope one day you find someone you trust and is trustworthy.
Thank you and yes i think it will too through time and patience. I’m glad you are doing better! Wish you the best, thanks for your comment!
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Coming off meds and then having to go back on them.
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I believe schizophrenia is just a technical term for what I have. I have all the symptoms, but believe in much the same things you do. I don’t often get the treatment or go to groups like I should though, to elievate some of my social issues.
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That makes sense. Thanks for your comment @everhopeful.
@BrianTex I see, you should consider going because it is worth it man. You know I might sound like im contradicting myself but I’m scared to go off meds because of the unknown, and I know being scared of the unknown is a choice that will lead to metaphysical death, but… I don’t know man, you should give it a try bro, maybe you can put your symptoms into remission or alleviate it some. Anyway, thanks for your comment dude.
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Even though my voices are gone I still am concerned about afterlife. I have seriously horrible thoughts about it I better not even mention due to triggering. Its really disheartening but yea I just need to try my best
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I was a computer simulator. In the movie, you could call me neo, cypher, or the step-son of the architect…in a way I feel that way. Especially in my past lives. I’m super disabled but not sure if I have full blown schizophrenia or just borderline with severe DP/DR, solipsism from space and time travel and simulation theory (going in and out), and from the norovirus as punishment from God or whatever as an eternal curse in a causal loop via consciousness transfer. Just my thoughts and theories. I think schizophrenia will be cured in 2-3 years. I dont see myself being schizophrenic for more than 10 years. If cured, I’ll be super human. I zero and negative motivation.
Hey @anon90843118 thank you for your comment! I feel this on a personal level, because I too was afraid of the after life and through trial and error I found that there is paths for everyone and in reality spirituality is meant to help not be detrimental to health. Just some food for thought, I really wish you best!
@insidemind I see have you been taking your medicine? I think you should consider a therapist to share your thoughts so they can help you, sorry to hear you feel like this sounds like you are going through a rough time right now.
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I was in denial the first psychotic episode…I said, “I just had a nervous breakdown” and went without my meds and got a job while semi stable still for two months at a design firm away from my original job being a residential designer…long story short I finally became totally psychotic again and the company took me by van to the hospital for observation and then I was put in a mental ward…sad thing is, I didn’t have insurance so they prescribed me some meds but I never got them filled and my room mates thought they could just let me stay insane while I lived there…this went on in a horrific belief system about the devil and Jesus was saving me for helping him come back to earth by sounding the chant, “eho yeshua holy yahweh”…long story short again…I finally got put in the state hospital and they kept me until I stabilized this time…never again would I go off my AP. never again.
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Thankyou, wish you the best too.
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I am more fcked as i think i am. 
Wow! What a powerful story! I’m glad you shared. Sounds like torment and pain, I think we can all agree when we show symptoms it’s best to take medicine, and try to remain calm. I hope everything is okay now @jukebox!
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What helped me accept the disease is that I found this forum and discovered that a lot schizophrenics think they’re a messiah or deity. That instantly convinced me I was sick, because I used to think the same thing.
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They dont care and cant help me. I need a cure. I’m tired of being told im delusional. I’m not. I already been helped. The meds help. Never hallucinated and not suicidal. I’m moderate functioning. In a few years, I’ll be proven right and you guys will think I’m an alien or some ■■■■. Happened last time.
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@agent101g that is a good way to look at it man! I think I should view it that way, because it is really distressing feeling ill and not knowing what it is. In this case being in denial.
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@anon97970229 yes ever since I stablized I stayed on meds even though risperdal made me suicidal because of sexual side effects…I couldn’t get a girlfriend I knew so I lost hope. it was a year later that I tried playing with a pistol but God showed me that I had reason to live. so I started trying to live again and I found fluphenazine (generic prolixin) and ever since I have been married, divorced then joined now with my current girlfriend Angie. I am happy.
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What does eho mean?
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@jukebox I see I sympathize with you, because it is a real issue of Anti psychotics! That is great to hear you found a reason to live, that is very inspirational. I hope everything gets even more better!
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I think “praise Jesus, Holy God” is the english translation …it’s in Hebrew studies I found how to say it…my company I worked for thought I was in cult and searched my house where my room mates were while I was in the hospital.