I’m feeling really down right now. I am really sad that I have a poor quality of life as a schizophrenic and my children are suffering with me. Not only that one of my children is struggling in school and it’s stressing me out. What did I do to deserve this?
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I’m sorry @Cici2. I feel the same way. Between my other health problems and my sza, sometimes it seems like I never leave my room, never see my kids. We never have their friends over. I don’t have any friends, so I haven’t taught them to be social. As a result, my oldest daughter can’t keep the same friend group, and my youngest daughter has no friends at all. I know it’s my fault; they learned by example. They didn’t deserve this. I don’t think that I deserve this either. I don’t think that anyone on this site does.
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I know what you mean. Before being put on meds it was much worse. So I’m grateful it’s gotten better. But I can’t help but feel down about all this. I’m so isolated from everyone out here and my kids have to suffer with me.
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I agree with above post. We do not deserve this. But it is the hand we were dealt. You have got to look at the positive you do as a mother. I lack in areas of motherhood because of my schizophrenia but overall I think I am a good mom.
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I try to be a good mom. Maybe I’m just being to hard on myself.
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I think being hard on yourself comes with schizophrenia.
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You are all awesome mothers. I never had a mother. And you all have awesome kids. My sister has her kids, and I’ve been around several of my friends kids and they are all awesome little people growing up to be awesome grown people.
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Aww thank you @anon1571434. That made me smile so big. That was a sweet thing to say.
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You make me smile Arturo.
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What you are going through is normal. Dont put so much emphasis on your disability. I know its hard not to. But simply look at it this way their are people who dont have our disability and their kids are fighting, running away, doing drugs, and failing in school and raised in the so called perfect homes. Its okay you will be fine its just one of those days dont be so hard on your self.
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Thank you so much
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Thank you @anon1571434. I think you made all of us feel better. Cici2, just know you aren’t alone. I like what Sleepy said about other people’s kids running away and doing drugs (well, I don’t like that kids do it, but I like the point). I know my kids are decent- they aren’t doing drugs, don’t run away, don’t curse (in front of me, anyways), and are decent human beings. Two of them even do really, really well at school (the third has recently diagnosed ADHD, so we are working on that). I am not a perfect parent, it’s true, but somehow they are coming out okay. Thanks for the reminders, y’all. @Cici2 and @Saywhaat, I’m sure your kids are great too, even with your sz being an obstacle. We do the best with what we have.
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Thank you happy_heather. My kids are great kids too. I was just having one of those days. I’m feeling Mich better now. Thank you guys!
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