Having a lot of intrusive thoughts about my thoughts being transmitted over the Am frequencies here in central Illinois. I’m afraid that people with a 200 mile radius can hear everything I’m thinking. Thinking about going to the hospital if this doesn’t go away soon. I think someone from the CIA is aiming a rifle at might head constantly, and I’m moving my head around so they can’t get a clean shot at me.
Alien no-one can transmit your thoughts - it’s impossible and always will be impossible. What you’re experiencing is a kind of persecution complex. It will get easier with time Alien, trust me on this one. You’ve got an illness - nothing more and nothing less - no-one is out to get you and no-one can read or hear your mind. I bet you’ve not eaten in ages - am I right? If I run on empty I get anxiety. Go get something to eat, try to eat and sit quietly for a few moments.
Okay, I’ll grab some fruit. Thank you @Username for taking a moment. Nobody seems to have time for me right now. My wife thinks I am full of ■■■■.
I used noopept 100 grams in 20 days and all my psychosis is gone. I only use 10 mg olanzapine every 48 hours.
Carbohydrate is good for calming down alien. Bread always helps me.
I ate a banana, and I’m now working on some cookies. I’m so damn sick of this disease. It really has me messed up tonight. Despite 30 mg of Haldol, I still have issues. I’m wondering if I should go to the hospital on my own. Slip out the back door while my wife is asleep?
Dear @anon40540444,
Yeah thinking one’s thought’s are going public is a typical schizophrenic fear. I had that type of experience too. It as no fun.
Yeah thinking the CIA or FBI is after one’s life is another common delusion. I had these things; not fun at all!
Jayster
Thanks @Jayster. My current pdoc is half inept, at best. I’m beginning to wonder about Clozapine…if that could work for me.
I’d stay where you are and wait till your wife wakes up and tell her you’ve had a rough night. If you’re feeling unwell it’s better you be at home than outside.
All good ideas.
You’ll be OK in a while - carry on with the cookies lol!
Haha. They’re addicting anyway. Teddy Grahams. Love 'em. I need to go on a diet. I’m too fat.
Maybe if I quit these damn meds I will lose weight?!
When you say your thoughts are going over AM radio, I think you’re out of touch with reality.
When you say your present pdoc is “half inept”, you and I might agree. Too many of them don’t prescribe really well, in my opinion. I work very hard to get good treatment from my med providers.
I had a psychiatrist suggest to me that I try meditation. So I went out on Amazon and ordered some help on meditation. Then, I printed that order up and sent it to the shrink. He was impressed that I had listened to him.
Jayster
Yeah, her idea of treating me is to hit me in the head with Haldol until I cave in mentally. She’s trying to make me into a drone. I don’t like her at all. I want some Clozapine I think.
I had that delusion too. I thought I could communicate through radio waves. We have FM frequenzy here. At first I talked to the messages coming through but then I realized anyone could hear my thoughts and I got a little panic.
It is a delusion. Try relaxing, go to sleep. Eat something. Do what ever makes you calm, don’t panic.
We have both FM and AM here. AM travels father, that’s why my thoughts are on the AM radio, so more people can hear them and make fun of me. I can hear them snickering at me now. Dammit, make this top.
Well they said to me, “If you’re schizoaffective, get on clozaril; it is the gold standard.” But the next doctor said, “Dude, you’re a paranoid schizophrenic.”
Do I have to diagnose myself, too?
Jayster
I don’t advise eating junk food. But I do agree that anxiety made my psychosis much more painful.
Jayster
I just finished polishing off my box of Teddy Grahams. I know I shouldn’t pig out, but hell, who cares? I already look like a slob and smell like a horse’s ass. At least that’s what I smell like to myself.