Anyone else dealing with this?

Well about a year and half ago i started to hear voices thinking they were external. They would say things like we’re going to kill you… Chop you up… Shoot you if you go outside etc… So i wasnt leaving the house. This went on for about a week then i got enough courage to goto the store. When i arrived there was a man standing next to his car and he had told me that i was breaking bail(i was out on bail and the charges were later dropped). Thinking nothing of it i proceeded to buy a pack of cigarettes and went home(i rushed inside scared about dying). I then went into the bath room and lit up a cigarette and some abnoxious voices started to shout busted over and over. I took a drag off of the cigarette and a male and female voice said stupify! I had the worst mental fog/anxiety when they said it. Throughout that whole pack they said quit smoking and if i took a drag again they would say stupify! With the same axiety and mental fog which isnt normal lol. My family worried about me(idk) decided to do an intervention to which they convinced me to goto the hospital where i was admitted. While there they diagnosed me with schizoaffective disorder. I got out 5 days later and stayed at my brothers house for a few days. I didnt want to be there so i convinced my dad to take me home to help with some things at my house but he didnt want me to stay there. After i refused to go back to my bros he proceeded to call the police on me and told them that i was suicidal which im not. They told him that i have the legal right to stay there. Well after that my voices told me not to sleep with my girlfriend but i did. They proceeded to give me erectile dysfunction for 2 weeks(i tried my best to get an erection but couldnt.) after the 2 weeks they chanted boner boner boner and i got an erection while they chanted and told me not to watch porn. After watching it they said we told you not to watch porn and i was unable to achieve an erection for the following week. They then started to talk through my mouth to my girlfriend about that they were going to rape her and talked so much ■■■■ while i helplessly watch as my mouth sputtered out the worst things imaginable. A couple days later they said they had been watching little nicky and said watch this haha and my jaw went to side and they talked thru me saying im little nicky. Then my jaw went totally to the side to where my teeth were biting into my gums and my toe curls to a cramped position. I went to the er and told them i was implanted and they admitted me for 13 days. While i was there we had 30 minutes of recreational time where we were listening to music. my eye lids would shut to the beat of the music and i wasnt able to relax at all. I was uncomfortable the whole stay. When i was discharged they said everybody wants you drugged so when my dad picked me up i was almost unable to speak like i was retarded or something this went on for about a month along with being unable to relax. Eventually the torture stopped and i had some suicidal thoughts and out of nowhere i was laughing uncontrollably for about 30 minutes straight and my voices told me that they were trying to make me happy. Fast forward about half a year and i was drinking some beer listening to some music and they asked if i want to see something cool i said yeah. And at the beginning of the next song i have an out of body experience of camera crews walking around me like i was at a concert. When the song ended i faded back into my chair ■■■■■■■ amazed. Ive had few different hallucinations like that where i wasnt in the same room. I dont visually hallucinate at all unless i ask. Now all they do is talk ■■■■ to me n call me stupid but they will give me closed eye visuals on command… Nothing like before. So anyone experience ■■■■ like this before?

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Damn bro sounds like a bad sequence of episodes you good now tho ? Are u taking meds and all that good stuff?

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Where are u from brosky…!!! The U.S…!!
@Kathulu

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Tried 4 different meds and non of them did anything except make me tired. Currently off meds because i dont want to deal with the side effects.

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You may not have been on the right meds or may have been on the right meds, but not for long enough for them to start working. It’s pretty much certain that you’re not going to bet better, and will probably in fact get worse without medication.

Hope you will see a doctor and get back on medications.

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