Anyone awake?

I’m in a weird mood. I’m finding myself deeply annoyed or bothered by generally positive things. I can’t explain it.

A video on the internet of springtime (flowers blooming etc.) really bothered me. Or grossed me out?

My close friends announced their engagement and I am ignoring them right now so I don’t have to talk about it.

There are so many things going on around me recently that are wonderful and I’m avoiding all of it.

please tell me someone has felt this before.

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When I get depression, I push everyone away, don’t care about anyone or anything.

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Does it sound like depression? I’ve been depressed and this feels different. I think I’m relatively content with my life aside from all the internal ■■■■ I have going on. Idk. Maybe I’m just experiencing it differently this time. I need a med dose really badly. I have an appt with the pdoc on the 4th.

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Hope you can work out whatever is bothering you @StripedShirtBoy.
My mood can be a little unpredictable too.

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Sometimes people just go through moods. It could be that you arent satisfied with your own situation and so seeing other things be happy just makes it feel worse for you.

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Yeah that’s what I mean I’m like very happy with my current life. It really isn’t that.
I started my • last night. And I’m still in pain from my surgery Tuesday. It’s probably a combination of those I guess. It still sucks though. Makes me feel very alone.
Yesterday I got in a full on screaming match with my 5 year old son over an iPad charger. I promised myself a would never do anything like that because of my abusive childhood. I know he’s okay and wasn’t really bothered by it as much as I was, but it still feels like failure.

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